I have been spending alot of time battling the depression and feeling sorry for him and me,I realized today theres so many more lives that were affected. The victim. his children, his brothe and sister, his nieces and nephews, his dad. So many lives have been changed forever. Today i feel like giving up. I feel like i don't wamt to fight for him. I just want to walk away and never look back, He is my son and i can not do that/ I feel like i am alone in this and i pray about that and God is listening I have a few people in my life now. I dont talk to them about this but it is good to have someone to talk to.