today
Today was a bit better. I just constantly have to monitor my thoughts, which is what i did today. I realize my self worth is still pretty low, so i even have to say affirmations when i am feeling lost inside. I thought i was well on the way to recovery considering how much therapy i have done, but i'm scared i may have just touched the tip of the iceberg!!! I have so many false beliefs in my head from all the abuse i've endured during the 28 years of my life, and its sad that i still am affected by much of my childhood and teenage years. I noticed that my anger is creeping up on me, and thats not good... i already have a bad temper. I really need to get to my therapist. And go to more meetings. I know i am holding on for dear life to many resentments and it really is killing me. Slowly but surely.... i need to refocus and let go... i am too much of a control freak. Even that though, must stem from a dyfunctional and chaotic upbringing... poor me, i have so much work to do!!!! but i will not give up... i always try to pick myself up when i fall....
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