I am going to try really hard to set up a routine for me and my children. I think we will all do much better this way. Now it's just a matter of actually putting effort in and being consistent with it. I am tired of staying at home, but i feel overwhelmed with getting four kids plus myself ready in the morning and out the door. If i could get over this, i could be doing so many things instead of feeling cooped up at home. I know i need to get my learners license and learn how to drive! I need to become fully independent and this will be a huge accomplishment once i achieve it. It's a lack of energy and motivation that drags me down. Maybe it's just pure laziness or my depression?? What ever it is, i need to push myself to get out that door and start experiencing different things, especially now that i am sober. I deserve to have a life! I know once i am back in school, my self-esteem will grow. Now that i am sober and drinking won't mess me up, i know i can achieve this want to badly to finish my education and start working! And to start thinking about buying a home! I want to be SUCCESFUL!