Why do i continue this cycle of destruction? Why do i set myself up to screw up and then dwell on the horrible feelings that come with it? When am i going to start caring for myself enough to quit drinking? Why do i do this? It just doesn't make sense... do i like feelin so crappy and worthless?

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Try not to be so hard on yourself. Tomorrow is another day to try again.
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You are doing what we all have done before. But it doesn\'t have to be this way. Once I surrendered and took baby steps to not drink one day at a time, I started to feel better about myself. The difficult part for me was taking a look at myself to find out what I was allowing to influence my actions, those people, places, and things. I don\'t have it all figured out but I did realize that the drink did not solve any problem I had or may still have. Recovery is a process. But the process has to begin somewhere. You can do this. Remember you are not alone. I\'ll keep you in my prayers