I feel so sad right now.I got into a huge argument with my ex and we said some really cruel things to each other.I was already feeling depressed because i went out the other night and got so drunk that i blacked out. It seems like i do this to myself every so often...WHY??!!!I know that when i drink i do really stupid things, not to mention the toll  it takes on my depression .I just want to forget, but i know if i drink things will just spiral downwards. I just want to be happy. I want to be a good mother. I want to be a good person. I want to be respected and i want to respect myself.Deep down i still feel like i am worthless... and i can't seem to forgive myself for all the mistakes i've made.