Today i was thinking about my depression, and how it can consume my entire life. It can be really confusing when it comes to dealing with my problems. For example, i am in a dysfunctinal relationship but i often wonder if it would be better if i wasn't depressed. But then i think that i am just trying to minimize the actions of my chilrens father, and thats not good. But seriously, what if its my fault that things got this bad? Shouldn't i at least give it my best effort and see if its salvagable?