I'm glad I got that stupid test over with. I'm sure I did just awful. I couldn't remember any of the stuff that I've been studying religiously for a month and a half now. And I kept reading over the same passages again and again so I could understand the questions, and I was just taking up more time... so much time that I had to go down my answer sheet just marking crap.Oh well, I know I'm not going to make what I wanted to, but I'll be satisfied if I can just make the minimum score to get me into school. That's pretty pathetic, huh?Friday night, the night before the test, my boyfriend, Glenn, told me he's thinking of taking an internship in Gatlinburg, TN. We've been dating for about 8 months now, but we've been good friends since I was like 17 years old. I'm 32 now, ... jeesh... 15 years!! Anyways, I'm past the point of feeling like I'd be fine without him. But I just can't move, either! I don't know what's gonna happen with us. If I had to guess, I would say... he will move and find someone much better than I to share his life with. Life is so freekin frustrating!! He said that if I didn't go with him, then he would just stay here. But I feel guilty... knowing I'm the only reason he'd stay. The internship would be good for him. It's not right of me to hold him back in his studies. I hate this!!!!
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I\'m sure that you did better than you thought, give yourself some credit. You have to believe in yourself, and we bipolars have a really hard time doing that. And if Glenn cares about you he will do the right thing. You have to trust your heart. You know what the ole saying is \" If you love someone set them free, if they come back they are yours and if they don\'t then they never was. You continue to hold your head up and remember where you come from, you have walked through much worse than this, this garbage here in our pathways is what I call hell. Just think about it, life is rough and only the tough make it, and I have faith in you...Take care and be at peace with yourself...love deborah