1000 Emotions for 1 Body

So many emotions felt this week , and I am struggling with how to process every single one of them and then try to eliminate the emotions that are not, in my opinion, worth having! My husband of 7 and 1/2 years filed separation papers this week after wanting to flee our marriage for about a year. I have been fighting againt it for a very long time and holding on and finding every way to try to keep us together. Two weeks ago, I literally felt I had no fight left. I had no reason to try to fight anymore. I had nothing left to lose because in reality, I had lost him a year ago. We had been living as a 'divorced' couple for a year in hindsight, but we just had never made it paper-official. I am moving out this weekend , and as that time approaches, here I am again with more emotion and feelings.