10 months out

Its been 10 months now ,alot has happened, it has gotten easier, but there are still ups and downs, good weekends and bad weekends I say that because weekends seem to be our sore spot, I have started to put myself first ,I am writing my first book , something I  have wanted to do since high school thinking I could be the next stephen king or who ever ,and I joined Weight Watchers , for me....and doing great ,I needed to take care of myself.Now my biggest hurdle to overcome is My Hs best friend or friend, he's single and lives at home with his mom and dad, mind you we are all 35 years old, he has no kids, divorced his wife got sick of his shit , and dumped his ass, he has no responsibilties and no drivers licences, he hangns out in bars every weekend and when my h cheated on me it was in a bar , he left with some bar skank or that is the story he told me,  He drags my H to the bar just about every weekend, well that was 4 weekends ago , after we had a huge blow out in a bar over it, he's been home every weekened . but how long will that last ,before he starts to blame me ,his friend freaking calls from Fri to Sat, two to three times  a day , its just one thing after another anymore, sometimes I feel like im taking 2 steps forward and being knocked back a mile, why does  everyone want to hang out in bars .no one wants me around because i am teh wife ,I must cramp the style , i guess my h can't be the wingman if his wife is there . right  , I guess I grew up on a different planet or something , because my friends and family do not act like that, married is married, if your in a committed relationship then your basically married ,they welcome my h with oepn arms talk to him, treat him with respect, his friendsd and family probably dont even know my name.  .... his friends and thier girlfriends none of wich are married .. all act like they are still in Junior high, ....  anyway, I am not going to waste anymore time on negativity....