10 months

It's been ten months now of crazy horrible anxiety. It's very quite unreal. The panic has gone done a lot but now just physical symptoms. Vertigo dizziness. Feels like I'm on a boat. Especially when I hold still of lay down. I can't eat cause I'm too dizzy. Well really I'm afraid if I eat imma puke it up since I'm prone to motion sickness and I feel like I'm in motion constantly. It's been like this on and off for months but now it's been 3 days straight. Blaming it on lexapro but idk still worrisome. The worst part is no one seems to give a shit about how horrible I feel. I'm just some crazy bitch to them. Which makes me feel even worse. I've spent the whole day bursting into years randomly. I just feel so alone in this fight. And I'm not giving up. I'm fighting every minute of my life, yet everyone thinks I'm a complete failure and crack up. I wish I had someone to just give me a hug and a few good laughs. I'm sure happiness would cure it all but everyone in my life has just totally left me when I need them the most.