10 DPO
BFN... It starting to feel all to real, so sad... I feel like I just want to crawl into a ditch and lay there.
This I think is my last attempt. We have one more embie, but its not as good quality as the last two so the chances are slimmer still.
so now my IVf history is
IVF 1- BFP (happiest day of my life) only to be followed by a missed miscarriage (and the saddest day of my life)
FET - BFN... I feel like I have lost my little one all over again
Now, how do I adjust to a world without a child? how do I cope seeing pregnant women, babies, happy families day after day, when my own family was torn asunder for no reason whatsoever?
My angel, my child, I miss you so much! why did you have to leave?
This I think is my last attempt. We have one more embie, but its not as good quality as the last two so the chances are slimmer still.
so now my IVf history is
IVF 1- BFP (happiest day of my life) only to be followed by a missed miscarriage (and the saddest day of my life)
FET - BFN... I feel like I have lost my little one all over again
Now, how do I adjust to a world without a child? how do I cope seeing pregnant women, babies, happy families day after day, when my own family was torn asunder for no reason whatsoever?
My angel, my child, I miss you so much! why did you have to leave?
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Oh dear friend my heart is breaking for you. Pls don\'t lose hope afterall it is all we have and no matter how hopeless things may see that light will continue to glimmer inside you. 10dpo is still early too....you may still get your BFP :) As for how to deal with and cope with reality I don\'t have the answers...it will require some really deep soul searching and I believe you will find peace in your life with or without a child. Thats the way I try and see it at least....
Thinking of you :)
I am going through the same thing so I feel for you. I will probably never get that baby I have always dreamed about. I am so sorry you are going through this. Hugs to you.
I am so sorry you are having to go through this Lina, my heart goes out to you. I have also at times wanted to crawl into a ditch and lie there. We just have to keep hoping. Hope you are having a better day today.