10/28/09

Well today was a pretty somber day for me.  It was my last day at work, rainy, cold, and miserable.  Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment for a botox evaluation, I'll see how that goes.  But today, just not good.  I'll just update everyone who reads this about my love interest.  I don't feel like talking about it too much, so I'll keep it short and sweet like most things in life... Last week she came to me about going out after she cancelled the first time, she just mentioned about going out tonight or sometime after I leave.  Well today she never even came to work lol, so I don't like to think the world revolves around me but it wouldn't surprise me if she called out to avoid me, she knew I'd be gone after today anyway.  So I never even got to say goodbye, not sure why I was even worried about saying goodbye, maybe its better that way.   My thoughts about it, well, I guess I'm over her now, I don't think I have a choice in the matter.  I could call her as she said now that I'm gone but I don't think its worth it anymore, she obviously didn't care that much for my feelings so whatever.  The day went fast, and the guys I work with took my mind off of her as I got to joke around with them and say goodbye to them and the other lady at the office.   I guess I just feel a little hurt by the whole thing, I'm not too hurt over it, I'm pretty tough and can handle most anything, so I'll move on pretty quick.  It just bothers me that she couldn't even call me at all to say I can't go out or just tell me no I'm too busy from the start, or even to say goodbye, thanks for the help.  Pretty obvious she never wanted to go out so just fucking tell me or give me some lame excuse from the start.  The damn games and leading me on gets to me.   So unfortunately this ended pretty bad or it will, I don't think I did anything wrong in the whole thing, I didn't badger her about it everyday, I tried to be laid back about it.  Guess that's what I get for being a nice guy though, if I go back and visit I'm not sure I even want to talk to her now, it will just hurt too much.  Why should I anyway?  She can't seem to talk to me.  I really don't want to be bitter about the whole thing, but I think I deserved a little more then just nothing, I would have taken a phone call even, or a goodbye over the phone.  Well I think I should stop now because I'm just getting more annoyed and pissed off about it the more I think about it, and I don't want that.  I just have to let it go...I'm over her. Daughtry - Over Youhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4C_oHwLcivY