10-2-09

                 Well here it is 10-2-09.  My ex wife is married again. My girlfriend and I are broken up. I sit here thinking and wanting to apolize to her in person for the thing that I have done over the past year. I would have broken up with me to. Only it would have been a long time ago.                    See things were going Very well until Jan 6 (my birthday) the Ex wife called me and asked for help in getting her boyfriend at the time a job. I thought she might have wanted to wish me a appy birthday but I was wrong. This starting putting doubts in her head about were I was at in life. but before that I would pretty much do what ever she asked of me to do. That was a problem because even though we were threw her happiness was still than mine was.                                   Well she started to loose the power over me with what was them my G/F so she started putting stuff in my head and I was the bumb ass to listen because she EX did not have my best interest in her head it was still all about her. The x G/F I and my 2 girls went to pittsburg for her family reunion yes me and my girls. The EX wife started getting jelious and contuned to put shit in my head. I contuned to listen.like a dumb ass.              Then we all went on vacation the the OBX last month G/F and the kids. for a week. she expected me to porpose to her there and I should have I really should have. .. then when we got back the EX started her stit again only this time she wanted me back and was crying on MY shoulder funny that is want i was doing to her when this started. which put doubt in my head and the G/F thing.I did not want her back at all all the pain I went through for over a year a fucking year 18 months actually. I listened to her again like a DUMB ASS and put doubt in my relationship with the G/F              We broke up on 9-20-09 because of the EX wife who has playing with my head for over 2 years now and NONE OF THIS,WAS IN BY BEST INTEREST only hers    David