10/19/09

I went to the occupational therapist today, unfortunately my insurance doesn't cover OT so I couldn't keep going for OT.  I must say she was very helpful though, as the PT did, she also suggested Botox to release the tone in my arm and hand to in turn allow me to wear a split at night and she said that could allow the cyst to go away on its own due to the type of cyst it is.   So as soon as the place that does the Botox injections gets my health records from my doctor I can schedule an appointment and hopefully get the injection done that same day, and wear the splint that same night!  She said allow a month or so for the cyst to go away on its own so I hope it does the annoying bugger! lol.  She also agreed with what I've been saying for the longest time that the cyst can cause so much discomfort and pain that that will increase the tone in my left arm and hand.  But the doctors didn't want to hear any of that so like I said that explains why the tone increased right when the cyst formed.   But anyway she was a cool lady and really made my day, it was nice to meet someone that actually listens to you and not what they want to hear, she was very pretty too on top of that ;) So that's the plan for now, funny how when someone just listens to you it makes you happy...If the cyst does go away on its own, the next step is hand tendon surgery cause I don't feel like getting Botox for the rest of my life.  I want a more permanent solution in time, I'll then find peace with myself I have no doubt.   I'm pretty strong willed that way, when I set my mind on something I don't back down until I achieve it, so today was a big step towards that goal.  I also finished reorganizing my room and I put my new dresser together pretty much on my own, I really felt like Noah when I was doing that lol, if you read my last entry you'll understand lol...But I finished what I started and built something that I can take pride in, even with directions... :)  So that's always a good feeling. As for my lady situation, I haven't thought much about it since Friday which is good I think, I'll most likely see her tomorrow so we'll see what happens.  Her true character will show either way, and I might view her differently if she doesn't mention our date at all.  Just because I feel she could have just told me no instead of making excuses.  Not because she's not interested.  If she does bring it up however my feelings wouldn't change, even if she views it as friends/co-workers, I think thats as fair as I can get right?  I can't get mad because she's not interested, just be honest with me and no excuses, or tell me no from the start, don't lead me on.  I can take it, I'm a man lol.  Till tomorrow...but to be honest with myself and my readers I don't have a good vibe anymore about this, but that could be a natural feeling after Friday so who knows, we'll see. I'm going to be doing a Photoshop art of Jennifer Love Hewitt soon too, I'll post the pic when I do it!  Later.     Kid Rock - Only God Knows Why http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DwBOFi_E48A