10/14/09

Wow I got some responses from my last entry.  Good to see people still want to believe in love and hope it still exists in this hectic fast pace world we live in.   Just to follow up on my last entry, I saw her in person today, she actually asked for me to make a run somewhere late in the day.  She's a co-worker for those not familiar with this story of mine :) But she was alone again when she asked for me to see her, so I asked her, do you still wanna go out?  And she said sure how's Friday?  I said that's fine.  I said how's 6?  And she said is 5:30 good?  And I said that's cool.  So she set the day and time actually not me lol, not sure if that means anything but she's interested it seems. As for my doctors, ugh, they never called me back about seeing an OT for my CP, they couldn't do PT with my hand so they want to try OT.  They want to try Botox as well which I'm not too keen on, but I'd try it for awhile.  I'm still more interested in getting tendon surgery done as a more permanent solution, and just doing PT to keep the tendons long.   But it gets frustrating when doctors won't do as you wish, I might see the hand specialist I found on the internet if I keep getting the run around with these doctors.  I was very impressed with the surgery he did on the other guy with CP.  They aren't even concerned about the lump in my wrist either which is my main problem with the pain and all.  But I'll give them another month or so then I'm going to make an appointment with the hand surgeon if nothing is done. Oh well, that's another story, another day.  I'll hopefully find a treatment soon that will make me happy.  There's a lot that can be done, if the doctors are willing to do it, but I can't wait forever.  All I know is life is uncertain, I don't know how much time I'll have left here, nor any of us, but the one thing I am certain about is her.  She represents everything good in this world to me, that's what I know. This is a sweet song...says it all.Mr. Big - To Be With Youhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_WynHm_JnfM&feature=related