10/13/09

What a day... If you haven't chatted with me or read an old topic when I first joined you wouldn't know I've fallen in love.  I don't really want to go into detail in this entry, but she's the most beautiful woman I've ever met in every way.  I've never ever felt this way about any woman, and I usually don't even care too much for romantic stuff and I normally don't think too much about it.  But her...thinking of her gives me butterflies in my stomach, and being around her just makes me forget all my problems and nothing else matters but her. To my day though, I've been thinking of asking her out lately, so today I got the courage up and did it.  I asked her out in the past but chickened out because I was worried about what people would think, long story...Today I was much more confident and not near as nervous and I asked her to a local restaurant near where I went to college.  As for her answer she said she'd love to go later in the week though because she was busy, but she'd love to go out.  So I'm going to give her a call and set something up in the next few days. :) She seemed pretty excited and when I said I'll give you a call she said sure and gave me a smile. So I hope she'll have a good time with me. I'm just lost though to be honest, I have so many doctors appointments coming up, I only have a couple weeks left at my job, my future is so uncertain.  I'm almost saddened by all of it, then I get this hopeless romantic feeling when I think of her, I start to wonder if I could ever have a future with her, what do I do next?  Should I just go out and have fun with her, should I tell her how I fell even though I'm scared to death to hear what she says? I was watching the movie Hitch awhile back and the beginning of the movie is funny but very true when he's explaining all about dating and what to do.  There's one line where he says she said yes, you don't have to worry about what she thinks of you anymore or she would have said no.  Its your job not to screw it up.   So I guess I can go with that, she said yes twice now, so she at least enjoys my company, and could possibly have feelings too.  I mean I'm going to be going out with the woman of my dreams and I'm starting to mope and get ahead of myself as usually.  I'm not sure whats wrong with me, but I think I just have to enjoy it and live in the moment, whatever happens, happens, I mean I'm going out with the woman of my dreams. :) On that note I have to go or I'd write more, but I think I'm happy at the moment.  This song is for her. Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thinghttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vo_0UXRY_rY