1 year later.....

1 year ago today my whole world came falling down on me, I found out that my H and best friend were having an affair right under my nose ...... I cant explain the emotions I went through, but I know you all understand and there is no need for me to explain...My husband and I have been very hard to get back on track and we are doing really good considering. We go to counceling and talk and have date nights..It has been a rough year but it gets better every day. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right call when I decided to give it another try even though we are doing pretty good, I dont know if that is that normal ...  I have days when I cant stop thinking about the two of them together, and how much they hurt me but they are not as frequent as they used to be. I still feel very insecure and it makes me feel uncomfortable when he wants to go out with his friends...I sometimes wonder if that is ever going to go away but I dont feel the need to check his phone or e-mails every day anymore.The past few weeks have been bad again though, I think because we were comming up on the 1 year mark...As for my former best friend, needless to say we are no longer friends, but you know what the crazy thing is? I miss her, like crazy at times. I miss the good times we had, the talks.... I know it is insane and makes no sence and that I schould me so mad at her or even hate her but I dont....