1 step forward 3 steps back
Hello out there!...I lost My husband Bill a year and 1/2 ago. He died of a heart attack...49 years old. He died at home with me here...I did CPR until the medics arrived, tho I knew he was gone. Lost My Dad the same way and I was 15 and was with him...I didn't know CPR then so I was damn sure I was going to try to save My Bill. This year seems worse than last year...and though my faith is strong and I have seen some signs I feel like I make one step forward and then fall back three. I don't understand how people just don't get it...like now that a year has gone by no one asks how you are doing?...like by magic you must be better by now! Every day is a struggle :(
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Sorry for your loss. I lost my husband 13 months ago then my mom 3 weeks ago. This grief journey sucks but hoping for better days to come. Hugs Kat
Heather . . so sorry for your recent loss. So traumatic . . trying to save your spouse, to no avail . . and a repeat of the experience with your father. All so sad. We eventually heal . . but not by magic and not within a specific time line. Please be gentle with self. Breathe, and keep it one day at a time, no matter how long it takes. You will survive this! Hugs, D
Thank you both so much
I found the second year harder, but looking back it was different. The fog of this can\'t be true has lifted and I found myself in the what do I do now stage. Keep moving forward with your memories and eventually they will make you smile instead of cry. Your husband was lost too soon. Sharon
Heather,
I am reading this today, 6th July 2015.....I am sorry again, for your traumatic
Loss...I hope getting support from this site, is helping. Please Heather keep posting, reaching out helps. I needed a support group to go to, around the 5th month of losing my husband. I went to GriefShare, the have groups all over America and Canada. They are faith based. I found the group was a good place to interact with people going through grief. It may have helped if it was W/W only, however it was a good start. Do a google and let us know if you
Decide to go........
You are in my thoughts.....Sandra