1 MONTH AGO TODAY!...

1 Month ago today, ...I was struggling with the fact that I got scammed out of $180 and was forced to take a title loan out on my truck!!!...
1 Month ago today, ... I spent 5+ hours doing laundry...
1 Month ago today, ...I was exhausted, frustrated, and tired...
1 Month ago, today ...I went to a meeting that didn't meet!...
1 Month ago, today ...I needed help, or support...
1 Month ago today... I spent the entire night and half of Friday in the ER...
1 Month ago today...I was supposed to get my 'scripts refilled by the county...
1 Month ago today... YOU...You hurt me...again...
1 Month ago today... YOUr actions spoke so much louder than your words ever have...
1 Month ago today...I didn't know what to do...
1 Month ago today...I felt guilt, shame, and disbelief...
1 Month ago today...I felt unworthy, unloved, abandoned, abused, angry...
1 Month ago today...I seriously considered calling the police...
1 Month ago today...I seriously considered pressing assault charges against you...
1 Month ago today...I became a victim
1 Month ago today...I died...again!
 ...and TODAY...ONE MONTH LATER...I am still struggling with all the things that occured a month ago!...I am still dumbfounded...I am still paralyzed with disbelief at all that has happened in the last month!!! ...I still don't know what to do...I still cry...I still can't really focus on anything...I still can't fix anything...I can't afford to go to the doctor, but I have pay this stupid loan that I was forced to take out and not even able to enjoy...I am just so fucking frustrated, pissed off at MYSELF more than anything...WHY...why can't I just get over all this crap...
Back in the day, this NEVER would have happened to ME...WHY...can't I fix everything like I used to be able to do? 
UGH!....GLOOM...DESPAIR...and AGONY ON ME...Deep dark depression...excessive misery...If it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all...GLOOM...DESPAIR...and AGONY ON ME!!!!
 
WELL?