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"I used to analyze myself to the last thread, used to compare myself to others, recalled all the smallest glances, smiles and words of whom I tried to be frank, interpreted everything in a bad light, laughed viciously at my attempts 'to be like the rest'- and suddenly, in the midst of my laughter, I'd give away to sadness, fall into ludicrous despondency and once again start the whole process all over again..."

- Crime and Punishment