1/4/12 TTC Update It's 2012!

Well, well, well what can I say??? Last few days have been a little rough... just now getting over the stomach virus ughhh talking about HORRIBLE... I don't remember the last time I ever SHIT on myself! lol Well I'm now on cd 15 and no sign whatsover of "O". :( Bummer. But the good news is.... wait for it..... wait for it..... only a week away till my appointment with the Obgyn!!! I can't wait to discuss my treatment options. I hope he prescribes me Clomid. I've been hearing some good stuff about it :D It's the start of a new year and I'm hoping that 2012 will be my year! I'm sooo ready to be a mom and Pablo can't wait to be a daddy and I've been teasing him alot lately about changing diapers and getting up during the weeee hours over the night for feedings. I've been having alot of dreams lately about being pregnant and the last dream I had was that I was having an ultrasound and was watching my baby on the tv screen :) and how I was sooo happy I had made it that far into the pregnancy... then I woke up and I touched my belly and realized it was just a dream :'( I had a pregnancy flash back the other day and remembered that during the short time that I was pregnant I would always talk in plural lol.... I would text Pablo from the bedroom and say, "come to bed already, WE (me and baby) are cold".... or I would say, "let's go get something to eat cause WE (me and baby) are hungry" lol... I'm trying to stay positive, even though these up coming days will be the saddest. It's been almost a year that I found out I was pregnant (Jan. 13, 2010) Of course it's not something I will just "get over", but I'm hoping for a miracle soon and that this hole in my heart can be filled again. :'( I will keep everyone posted on how my appointment goes!!!