1-26-2016 self worth

So today had my second session with my therapist can some how I don't know how it got to this subject but alot of the reasons why lie is because I feel like I'm valued or I feel like I'm not worth it.  Which is true and it's weird that once I start to think about how this could have happened and you start to connect the dots it makes sense.  It started with my mom kinda doing some stuff that made us lose alot of things that we had like our house and our life style. She chose to go and party instead of being a mom when I was in high school to the girl I was going to marry cheatING on me and getting pregnant.  Now I can't put everything on them cause I should know better from whats right and wrong but I know that these events did effect me. So I'll start there I've notice I would lie about things to make myself feel more valuable. Like for example at work awhile back we got our bonus and for some reason a guy that doesn't have the experience that I do or been there as long as I do got more then I did and when he asked me I told him that I made this much. Which I picked a number higher then his. I did it because I wanted to feel value and them giving him more then me made me feel worthless.  There's other examples that show it more clear what I'm talking about and so on. So I started to think about all of the things that I've Accomplished So far, went from, getting a job staying sober I was a boarderline Alcoholic and drugs. The last time I smoked Pot was September and the last time I did molly was july.I lost 50 pounds and I know weight 140 pounds I've been take first and second in many jiu jitsu tournaments I have the best girl in the world pushing me I teach classes to kids and adults that look up to me and trust me. Im sure there's other stuff that I'm not listing but the point is I've gone through it all in life ups and downs and man I know I'm beginning to see how worthy I am how much my life has value how much happier I am not that I see this. I'm a great guy how has great life. Sure I don't have tons of money and cars and whatever but what I lack in value in that department I have many more things that I value that money can't buy. I'm able to pay my own bills and give when people need it. It's good to be me. I love myself and I deserve happiness and to be free from lying and I'm happy with my progress. Keep your heads up everyone even thou we may never meet I'm pulling for everyone to kick this lying bs out of there life's ! Keep up the good work. I'm sure theres more to write and I skipped a bunch of stuff I needs sleep I'll post me tomorrow