1/26/18
My best friends died on the 13th of January. For a week I felt nothing but sad and numb. In the past week, I have been less sad, though it comes out more when I think about them. The numbness remains. Numb is an odd feeling, as well as an area that is complicated since it is not entire numbness. My thought process is that it is more so towards sensitivity and negative self-talk, which is one of my hardest areas. It is hard to explain, but it kind of feels like the switch that controls many of those things is turned off. I know I am still in the middle of the grief, but I hope the numbness continues just because then I don’t feel like I am as sensitive. I am kind of worried about what will happen as the grief and numbness go away, but maybe while it is here I can get into a better state in my own head.
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