1-15-11

I spoke with my pdoc and he thinks putting me in the hospital to ween me off some of these meds is a great idea.  I was just worried about finding a good safe place for my son to stay while I was in the hospital. But, I had a discussion with my son regarding the options and he mentioned his friend Tyler's house. Which is actually one of his friends who I really like and I have been to his house several times and know his mom from the kids hanging out. My son Sam called up last night and spoke with Stephanie, Tyler's Mom and said, "My mom is sick with a disease, and she wants to move me to Maryland where my grandparents are for a few weeks to go to school so she can go in the hospital , but I was wondering if you might be able to let me stay at your house with Tyler so my Mom can get better and I won't have to leave my school?" Stephanie was truly an angel! She told Sam to pack his bags and come over as long as you need to so your Mom can get well. Boy, that makes me feel good. I am so grateful.  
The pdoc plans on me going into the hospital on Monday. I haven't been in the hospital for inpatient for along time since I was like 18 years old. I am hoping they can find another medicine combination for me cause these 5 meds are just making me feel worse with each passing day. I hope I find some releif to this constant battle and struggle that I have been going through. I feel like my heads going to explode, like some of these meds are reaking havic on my body and I can't function at all like this, all I do is dwell on my condition 24 hrs a day. I try to do small things, but everythings a chore.