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Today has been a tough day for me. First of all, I didn't sleep well at all I woke up at 3:30am had a cigerette ... then went back to sleep till 5:30am and had another cigerette.. normally I sleep through the night, interupted.. but I guess subconsciencely I have a lot on my mind... about whether I have skin cancer, dealing with my meds, my depression, whether I am ready to start working again in February, coming up on 2 years of soberity Feb 9th, dealing with my son's ADHD and so on...
I set the alarm so I wouldn't be have my son miss the bus this morning, and we made it to the bus on time which I felt like was a big success considering the trouble with my sleep. I went right back home and took a nap with the dog till I got a phone call from my son at 10 am from the nurses office. Sam was telling me how I forgot to givce him his ADHD medicine, he has a terrible stomach ache, he forgot to tell me there's no money in his lunch account so he couldn't get food for snack or lunch. So I went to pick Sam up and give him his medicine and take him to subway for lunch. He told me that he told the nurse we were having financial problems thats probably why we don't have $$$$ in the lunch account. That comment my son told the nurse really irritates me cause I have enough money to pay for lunch and I am doing better financially than I have done other times in my life when I was working paying a babysitter $1,500 a month!!! Sam is almost a teenager and sometimes he says the darnest things.
Well, I never got to the gym cause my energy level was at O today. I forced myself to get cleaned up to go meet my AA sponser for coffee cause I committed to being there. It was nice to see her. She understands me cause she stuggles with depression and sleep too. It was good to catch up even though not sleep right totally messed me up today. I hate it. My doctor never gives me anything for sleep cause normally I don't have these problems.. But the pdoc just recently increased one of my meds which this could be a side effect.
I set the alarm so I wouldn't be have my son miss the bus this morning, and we made it to the bus on time which I felt like was a big success considering the trouble with my sleep. I went right back home and took a nap with the dog till I got a phone call from my son at 10 am from the nurses office. Sam was telling me how I forgot to givce him his ADHD medicine, he has a terrible stomach ache, he forgot to tell me there's no money in his lunch account so he couldn't get food for snack or lunch. So I went to pick Sam up and give him his medicine and take him to subway for lunch. He told me that he told the nurse we were having financial problems thats probably why we don't have $$$$ in the lunch account. That comment my son told the nurse really irritates me cause I have enough money to pay for lunch and I am doing better financially than I have done other times in my life when I was working paying a babysitter $1,500 a month!!! Sam is almost a teenager and sometimes he says the darnest things.
Well, I never got to the gym cause my energy level was at O today. I forced myself to get cleaned up to go meet my AA sponser for coffee cause I committed to being there. It was nice to see her. She understands me cause she stuggles with depression and sleep too. It was good to catch up even though not sleep right totally messed me up today. I hate it. My doctor never gives me anything for sleep cause normally I don't have these problems.. But the pdoc just recently increased one of my meds which this could be a side effect.
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