09/26/17
The main point is I'm considering suicide because of my instructor who made a big deal about my fail.
It hurts to fail but it's different when your teacher makes fun of you and encourages awful behavior to your peers.
I need uplifting something....anything.
I want to die it's so not worth this type of pain I should've done it long ago.
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People can be jerks. But you kneejerking from one tiny act of stupid or mean on their part to you topping yourself for good and all is not going to get you anywhere.
If you hope this will make instructor sorry - Instructor won't feel sorry for what he said. Instructor will think you just earned yourself a darwin award. You will confirm his beliefs about you, you will not make him question his beliefs about himself.
So don't do it. Prove him wrong by getting the test right. Stand up, suck your tummy in, and go back into the fray.
I like appreciation exercises to get me through setbacks like this. My favorite is to quickly, without over-thinking, find 3 things in your immediate surroundings worthy of appreciation.
1) The warm coffee mug in my hands.
2) The comfy chair from which I type.
3) The technology which allows you and I to be connected.
If you’re still here Skii listen to them ^ they’re more than right a little thing like this is disappointing but not something to hurt yourself over. I hope you’re ok and haven’t done anything irrational. Get better.