050612 stressed

a lady asked me out for a glass of wine.  we chit-chit for a few minutes.  she called me later at my part-time job to ask me out.  i was too afraid to say no.  she is nice and all but i am just not ready for that.  i still can't believe anyone is interested in me.  i know i am going to pull out.  i am thinking of ways (lies) to get out of dates.  this really depresses me that i feel like i am in a jam when a woman wants to get to know me or find me interesting.
 
i am reading: Abused Boys: The Neglected Victims of Sexual Abuse by Mic Hunter.  i like it.  there are things in there that i can relate to.