04/28/08

Ok- Since my last entry I have had 2 more mini flares. Me and my Dr seem to think it's time to try something new. So today I am having my 1st Remicade infusion. I am a little scared but a lot hopeful. I have read through  all the posts that I can find on Remicade and my findings seem to point to this being a useful treatment.  I believe the benefits outweigh the risks. I just really want to feel "normal" again-although it's been so long I don't remember what "normal" is anymore. Right now even on good days I feel like hell. I just want to be able to go and have fun again without worring where the nearest bathroom is. Or not going out 'cause I just don't know how it's going to turn out.  I started a list of things I want to do when I feel better (it's a small one right now-don't want to get ahead of myself) 1) go out to a club and go dancing2) travel more w/ no worries3) take scuba diving lessons4) go scuba diving Well time to leave for my treatment-Here goes nothing!