I just lost my husband of 4 years three days ago. We have a beautiful little boy who will be 2 in a week and a baby due in 5 weeks. We just moved to be nearer to my family so I am in a new place. He was a disabled vet and I quit my job to move here and go back to school. He is 16 years older than me and had been a wild child, so I new someday he would go first. and we would talk about it and he said I would be fine with out him. I am only 25. And I feel like my life has become completely derailed. My step dad is moving in to help me out with the kids and financially but as glad as I am I miss my old routine with my husband. he was the only one who could make me laugh. we did everything together. his family is not close to us and he was not a social person. I knew him better than anyone. I miss his voice and smell so much. he gave us a quick kiss and left to ride his motorcycle for a few mins. He never made it home. After midnight police came to inform me they found him in the grass in next to his motorcycle. They believe it was a heart attack. if anyone has a similar story please contact me. I feel like this has never happened before but I know if must have. Thank you.