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I had dinner with my ex on sunday night. I don't know what I hoped to gain or what I expected, but I now know it was a bad idea. We broke up alittle over three months ago and while it wasn't a hostile ending, it was a pretty painful one for me. I still loved him and missed him terribly. Maybe thats what motivated me to go, I'm not sure, but I honestly thought I was over him enough to tolerate seeing him. Turns out I was wrong. The minute he walked through the restaurant door old emotions and unanswered questions flooded back.
I kept calm and stayed pleasant, but when he more or less told me that he's already moved on and doesn't even miss me anymore, or regret the hell he put me through during the last few months of our relationship, I felt like all of the air went out of the room. We were together for two years. Was I that easy to forget, to get over? Does he honestly think it was okay to treat me the way that he did?
The truth is I'm envious that he was able to move on so easily, wish I could. I don't want him back, I never did, so why do I feel this way? Why have I been waking up at four in the morning for the past two nights and crying my eyes out?
I don't understand why his words affected me so badly, but I'm afraid that I may have seriously screwed up my peace of mind, what little that I had, by seeing him so soon. Stupid, stupid, stupid....
I kept calm and stayed pleasant, but when he more or less told me that he's already moved on and doesn't even miss me anymore, or regret the hell he put me through during the last few months of our relationship, I felt like all of the air went out of the room. We were together for two years. Was I that easy to forget, to get over? Does he honestly think it was okay to treat me the way that he did?
The truth is I'm envious that he was able to move on so easily, wish I could. I don't want him back, I never did, so why do I feel this way? Why have I been waking up at four in the morning for the past two nights and crying my eyes out?
I don't understand why his words affected me so badly, but I'm afraid that I may have seriously screwed up my peace of mind, what little that I had, by seeing him so soon. Stupid, stupid, stupid....
Regardless, I am glad that I'm no longer involved with him. The relationship was great for awhile, but when it took a turn for the worse, it really got bad and I was the one to suffer for it. I certainly don't miss that.
I guess what bothered me the most was the idea of him getting over me so quickly, while I'm still haunted by feelings for him. It's kinda like the last insult, but on the up side, now that he's made it so clear that all of his loving emotions for me are gone it should be that much easier to let go of him...
In hindsight, was this bloke WORTHY of YOUR LOVE of him (to ME at least, DEFINITELY NOT)? Sweetheart, when it comes to TRULY LOVING their fairer, and equal opposites, generally speaking, MEN quite simply, DO NOT HAVE A CLUE IN HOW TO DO.
And another, ALMOST CERTAIN FACT about your previous LOVE, he hasn't moved on, he doesn't know how to, and therefore...CAN'T. See beyond what YOUR heart says, and I am sure that this ACTUAL FACT will become more apparent to YOU!!!
YOU are a BEAUTIFUL in ALL ways woman, DON'T ALLOW this punk to cloud YOUR judgement of YOURSELF, because that is what YOU are doing sweetheart, YOU are ALLOWING him to do so, and to ME, that is what is the SADDEST about this post.
there are many many many men out there who are truly wonderful and loving their women!they may seem hard to find but they are out there!!!!i have one of them, my mothr inlaw does, my mother does, my sisters do, my sister in laws do, mant of my cousins do...!