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Hard To Talk About Him

shewearsblack17
shewearsblack17

I called my stepson today, and we probably talked a couple or three hours about his dad.  When I got off the phone I discovered I was shaking. I suppose it is going to take a lot of time for the trauma to subside.  Aaron has been very supportive, and we can talk candidly, but so much tends to be "bittersweet."  Many know that I only knew my husband less than 6 years total, but his life had many twists and turns.  Not all of it good.  I even learned some things today that I did not know about.  I choose not to dwell on the "what ifs" though because I would probably go off the deep end.  This whole thing is nothing short of a tragedy, and only God will be able to bring total healing to the family.  This support group can only take you so far.  I find comfort in driving to my church, using my fob to go in and pray - as often as I can.  I feel for those who deny their Maker.  

Group Foundergerald222
gerald222
You are right it takes time for the trauma to subside and the healing to begin. I also have a fob for a little perpetual chapel that I go to when I need quiet time with God. It truly is my place of healing and escape from the world. Even though as you say you knew your husband less than 6 years when you fall in love with someone when you lose them regardless of time you knew them it makes a permanent mark on your heart when you lose them. Praying for your continued healing.
shewearsblack17
shewearsblack17
I know I talk about him on here - to strangers, but that is different. His son was resurrecting things that happened when he was growing up and when they worked at the same hardware store. Their boss was a first class jerk, so I seldom went in there. I still wonder about many things. Our first year of marriage was as rocky as the Rocky Mountains, but then we had a few good years thereafter. Then he got sick, and then he got sicker...if I were to go back, would I do it all over? I might not. The pain is too deep.