wow! it's hard to believe that i'm already almost finished with the third day! i had another hard night last night. wanted to munch out while watching tv. so...instead... i got on my pc and played games and shut off the tv!

tomorrow, i plan on getting out of this house for awhile! i haven't gone anywhere since christmas eve! that will help make my day go much faster. besides, i might as well take advantage of the good weather and no snow while i can!

i am cooking my dinner right at the moment. butterflied chicken breast coated in a mixture of italian bread crumbs and ranch dressing packet! and mashed ( i boiled them with a boullion cube in them for extra flavor!) potatoes with ranch dressing packet in them for flavor and brussel sprouts! before bed tonight, i'm going to take a nice long bath and just relax after j. goes to work.

i can't believe i'm doing as good as i am! it's been over a year since i have even bothered to try to lose weight! i've just been too sick to care! but....i hate the way i feel and i hate how i look! my clothes are all tight and my underwear cut in and it makes me feel like i greased up and jumped off a three story building to get them on! i hate that feeling!! oh well, i know i have no one to blame except myself! i need to keep in mind why i am doing this! i need to stay focused and do this for me! so i can be happier and healthier and not ashamed of my own self!

i go back to my doctor's on the twentyfifth, hopefully she'll be surprised to see that i've lost weight!

finally, my dinner is done! i am starving today which isn't a good thing. my son woke me up around 4 in the morning and then i couldn't get back to sleep! finally, 8 am rolls around and i was able to go back to bed! but..... wouldn't you know it..........stupid me.....i had drank a big coffee (like dunkin donut's extra large sized coffee cup) and i don't know about anyone else.....but it makes me have to go pee like crazy! and....it's decaf for crying out loud!

anyway.....about and hour after i got to sleep.... i had a pee dream! thankfully ....i woke up and made it to the bathroom! lol!

anyway...i jump back in bed and slept until almost noon! i woke up b/c i had to pee again! never drink coffee and go to bed right away! you'll end up in a water bed!!!! lmao! i digress......the thing i was trying to tell you was, i didn't get my breakfast and i ended up having 2 slices of 12 grain bread with a glass of juice for lunch! not good! not good at all! trust me, never skip meals when you are trying to diet! it can screw you up and make you go off your diet! be right back.

i'm back! just ate my dinner and boyyyyy did i savor the flavor! my poor dog. he sits by me and waits for me to give him some of whatever i have...only trouble is.....when i am dieting and limited on how much i get.....he gets little if any! i'm going to close for the night! i am going to enjoy some coffee and a smoke and then play some games on my pc before i watch any tv! hopefully .....i can get myself out of my old routine so that the munchies would be such a bother! be back tomorrow after i get done visiting my family! love to all! take care, boomertoo