It's nearly time for bed...normally a time of anxiety for me because I dont' sleep well, or wake and have to get up a couple of times during the night.

Because the weather is shifting enough, I now have a half fan in my window, set to speed 2, pulling the air out so I don't feel cold. It's a comfort to listen to this white noise, often I don't hear my son getting up at 5am to leave for work at 6am. I often now don't hear the 4 school buses go by. 

After today, I've shifted the fan to a different window because of noise my neighbor is making...having that window open so my cat can watch and listen to the night as it shifts to day...now it's just a watching window, not a sniffing/hearing window...she does have a small space to sniff with the window fan.

I ease this day to an end, I'm listening to The Four Noble Truths for Sleep - Buddha’s Teachings for Peace & Letting Go - YouTube, yawning...oh joyful joy. I keep my lap top on my bed should I wake, I have a choice of listening to the above message, covering the screen, or turning on a light and reading a book...I no longer toss and turn when I can't sleep...it serves no purpose.

I have a new morning routine, and night routine that I try to maintain...it is helping.

I drove my car on Tuesday for the first time since May 5, when I took to my bed in exhaustion.

As I continue to pull myself up from deep depression/axiety using "I Am Powerful"

Using my breath breathing in Peace, Healing, Relief Calm...only one word at a time helps to shift mind chatter.

If I'm not asleep in 2 hrs, then I take an ativan which will put me out for a couple of hours...in bed by 11pm. alarm goes off at 9am.

Moving forward, letting go of my home of 27 years, cleaning, clearing, and getting ready to move sometime around 7/15. Everyday, not matter how I feel, I am making the choice of Acceptance and Letting Go.

I wish You Peace Healing And Strength To All Of DS and To The World At Large <3