I am depressed, because I am in love with my best friend who is straight. I told him so the other day and now we are far apart. When I see him from far it gives me terrible depression. He insists in being my friend, but all this does is tear me apart. I have him on my BB messenger chat where he has a photograph of him with his girlfreind. To make things worst in the small coomunity where I leave there is basically no gays are or at ;least dateable. I plan to move away soon, but it is not that easy with the job market being so unfreindly these days.