Last night I was athe this BBQ bar. I was surrounded by freinds and made new friends. My friends with their girlfreinds and a bunch of handsome guys and beautiful womnen. Wow, I felt so lonely that I eventually got sleepy and went home.

I have not felt so terriblt depressed in many years. I had all the bad thoughts that come with it. I am OK now, but this just keeps bringing woory for those friends in this site that feel this daily and at all time.

I just want to say to you all this brief message.

I am here becuase I have been through most of the pain you are starting to go through. I am a living survivor against being lonely for 20 years, never have woken up in bed with the person I loved (girl o boy), I have had sex but never made love, I live in one of the most homophobic places in life, and somtetimes I am still unaccepting of my situation.

The best medicine for depression is try cry it out, talk or chat with a friend and do some sports or exercise. Do not let it overwhelm you. You are king of your world and you should enjoy your life, feel human and deserving.

I am sorry if you feel this way. I just want you too know that I care and I am available because I believe in a better you and that everyone has a God within themselves. Everyone knows what they need to do to be better, so get out of bed and get it done! Lazy is not gay. LOL

This is a quick writing. I will write something more elaborated. I just wanted to say hello and that I care!

Peace out!
Andy