My wife loves the tv show "Law and Order Special Victims", I have told her several times over the years that I do not like that show, because I can't continuously watch a show about people being raped, molested, or otherwise sexually attacked. In past years I could usually find something else to do rather than stay in the living room and watch it. However now it's rather hard to stay out of the living room. So I am continuously being bombarded by all of these sexual attacks. I can usually get involved in my computer and not really pay attention, but even then I still catch glimpses and hear things, and it just scrapes the scab off the wound of my attack. I don't know how else to tell her why I don't like watching it. I don't understand why people like watching people get humiliated, and degraded, and victimized that way. How sick does some one have to be to enjoy watching that kind of horrible situation being glorified. I actually get very anxious and I can feel a panic attack coming on. I just really don't know what else to do. I have explained to her in very simple terms what watching that show does to me, and she just says "it's a tv show, get over it". Am I the only one that is effected this way, am I the only one that has issues dealing with this kind of situation. I'll be watching a movie, and when it gets obvious that someone is about to be attacked, I have to leave the room for a few minutes, until I know that it's over. I can not watch those graphic displays of violence. Am I the only one like this, am I the only one that who has a part of their attack that is still a scabbed over mess, this many years later, even though they are at a point they can talk about it to anyone at anytime with no problems? I don't understand how I can be so comfortable with it, and yet still have so much trouble dealing with watching it?
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