Victims of Sociopaths Community Group
For victims of sociopaths to discuss their issues and share their experiences and help each other. Your sociopath may be at home, in your social network, or in your workplace.
I've been with my boyfriend for just over 5 years now. He has two kids n I have one. We lived together for 4 years n I moved out a little over a year ago to get myself n my child out of such an abusive environment. Yet, we agreed to stay together because we love each other. I'm starting to see it as just a codependent relationship. He's extremely mentally n emotionally abusive. I recently found out that he's been cheating on me with multiple girls from work. At least three that I've found out about. He's also a pathological liar. Last night, he went as far to tell me that our kids don't love me n wouldn't notice whether I was around in their lives or not. That's a new low, even for him. Also, he recently moved in a friend of his who is absolutely no positive role model for anyone on the planet n there are no plans on him moving out anytime soon. He's constantly bringing girls back to the house n has a severe drinking problem, as does my boyfriend. I'm at the point where I can't decide if I should leave him for the sake of mine n my child's sanity, or if I stay n support him n take care of the family as I have been. I'm not the type of person to turn my back on a loved one with mental health issues, but, it's majorly affecting my child n I. Where do I go from here? Keep taking care of him although I'm miserable, or stand by his side n prove my love for him. One thing I know is that I absolutely cannot stand the fact he's with other women. It makes me sick n I feel as if I'm trying to prove to him I'm good enough not to be cheated on. I do everything for him n he's the most disrespectful, lying, cheating abuser I've ever dealt with. I'm the only other woman his kids have known besides their mother but he tells me that they don't love me n that I need to get over myself if I actually believe that they do. This has been going on for 5 years now. I'm exhausted. I don't want to keep doing this day after day, but knowing he's got other options out there just waiting to replace me, makes me wanna fight even more for my spot in our family's lives. Seriously, it's the worst relationship I've ever been in, n that's saying a lot. He'll tell me everything I wanna hear of course n begs me to stay but in the same breath, tells me to leave. I keep getting jerked into so many different directions. I honestly don't know what to do. Do I leave a loved one in their time of need or relieve myself of the constant abuse n just deal with the fact he's with other women. Did I mention he's a close friend of my brother's? Please. Any help, guidance, suggestions, ways of handling a sociopath...anything will help. I have no one to talk to anymore. Friends aren't allowed for me obviously. I've lost them all due to the conto n abuse I've suffered for so long.
The other side to this is you. I had someone ask me one time, do you think he would be there for you if you were addicted or sick with a serious illness? Im sure you know the answer to that. They cant even choose to be there other than when they are making you miserable, then while your being the good wife and good mother and making their lives easier, they seem to find time to do everything that makes your life harder. They are out doing and saying the things they lie about, so in fact we give them all the extra time they need to be with other women and do things they lie about and treat us like crap. Well i dont know about you but proving myself got me being the good person helping him be a shithead. do i want my kids growing up to be a cheating lying piece of crap hurting people? nope, would i want my daughter to stay with someone doing that to her? nope. further more it would kill me for either on of thoes things to happen. Im now almost 50 and because i chose to be that loyal person i am im now suffering not only because he damaged my relationships but my health, because we care about them more than we care about ourselves, which will never turn out good. count your blessings and get out spend your time figuring out what happened to you to make you ever accept it to begin with. go back to school, live your life, no one should ever be treated so badly, and you and me we are not desperate. we dont have to stay and be comfortable in misery. 'Show your kid that you are loyal to him or her, and yourself,..trust me they dont change. i promise. and if your in a position of not having somewhere to go, i just bought a house and i only left him 7 months ago...you come stay with me and get on your feet. stop wasting time...he chooses to be the way he is, let him.