Victims of Psychopaths Community Group
Is he or she a sociopath or psychopath? Think we're only talking about serial killers here? Psychopaths, sociopaths and even narcissists come in every walk of life, every career level, and every socio-economic category.
How many of you wondered if you were wrong about him being a SP? It's been 3 months with NC - even though we have a child together. I start to feel.so crazy that I wonder if I was wrong. I mean this guy even said once to me, "I'm probably a sociopath" and yet I'm still in denial. I'm in this bargaining stage of thinking if I would have done this or that he would have picked me and not the OW. That everything they do, is what I wanted! He even takes care of her kids and won't even acknowledge that "ours" existed. He says he never 3 wanted our child so he will feel.no guilt about not being involved. The only reason I think I "won" and was D&D was because I got a large amount of child support and he HATES me for it. I'd rather my son have a dad than the support. Just sucks.
I was thinking that for a very long time till I realized he was protecting himself and blocking my affords to make him happy and bring us closer to each other. He had a plan for me from the very beginning and I could not change that or negotiate for better treatment. He calls the shots. But in his life not in mine. I only regret not leaving sooner. I am not in a competition and I always deserve respect as human being.
I don't want to be her because I am me and I am disgusted by his abusive, condescending, entitled behavior. Nobody crowned him king. They trinangulate so other people face each other and they can get away from the hate and resentment their victims feel for them.
Sometimes I wonder if he truly pushed me away so he didn't truly show his colors to me and who he was, and maybe in some twisted or warped way, he did care for me. But then I think, no, it was just him being selfish and controlling and manipulating. He calculated every move, every lie. It's so amazing to me, still.
Even knowing that my mother could be a sociopath as well, it terrifies me because it makes me feel like that is my normal, so I wouldn't know what a "Good" relationship was if it hit me. My trust is gone. I have a friend (male) that is trying to be there for me through this, and all I do is question his integrity and intentions. I have made it clear and set boundaries, but he still want's to "help" and be there if I need to talk. It's driving me insane!