Johnny, I saw your post... You are being manipulated by buying him items, your willingness to shield yourself from what you know is true, and him responding negatively to your caring nature. I do hope you are able to walk away from him and surround yourself with people who respect you. Stay strong.

Yes manipulated EyesO. haha a few wines and spell checker lol. Movingon74 - I am truly addicted. He is on his best behavior, but my guard is up. I was just so lonely. I'm trying to reconnect with old friends, be more active in my business, and eventually weed him out. I know there is somebody better for me. Its just a matter of time before the mask slips anyway.

johnny, why are you putting yourself through this ? this lesson has been presented to you so that you can change your self so that if or when someone new comes along you wont make the same mistakes. I understand lonely very well, I spend most of my time alone. but is it really worth the pain and humiliation of being with someone who is is not capable of loving you ? because yes it is only a matter of time and its going to hurt worse than the first time when he is gone again. why would you do that to yourself ?

So....you're buying him a haircut?

hahaha he wanted a haircut and got shot down by you. Kudos!

no jewels, he wanted a haircut and pretended he didnt in order to get one. Im so sad that I got that manipulation right away :(

Johnny, the problem with staying with this guy until you are able to weed him out is that you are becoming more like him (mentally being OK with being manipulated etc). How in earth will you go from this relationship to anything normal? This must be affecting you. Shoot, its affecting me and Im only reading it.

*on

Dont feel too bad.l had to move in with an ex psychopath boyfriend because of finances for two weeks.l am trying to view it as an experiment..l had no other option..l am not in love with him anymore though which gives me an advantage its like l am detached checkmate

I dont think I'll be with him much longer. Prior to the first break up our relationship was very romantic(Thats what I wanted and thats what he picked up on, so he became the very romantic man I dreamed of). Now that we are back together he has been making strange sexual request, Like role playing, toys in the bedroom, and the like. Prior it was bedroom music and kissing, now its me degrading him and punishment, actually giving him physical pain. I guess since P's cant feel any emotions the like to feel some kind of pain. I don't like it at all. The relationship is now become a turn off for me. I should have stayed with no contact but i missed the love he presented to me and reconnected. At least this time it will be easier to separate myself since the romantic love is dying.

....sometimes we have to go backwards in life in order to move forwards and to grow in the direction that we need to...I admire your strength and fearless determination JohnnyFC.....THAT was a heck of a risk you took.....I am WAY too afraid to EVER open that can of worms again. :)..those worms are snakes and they BITE :) LOL

No regrets.....you did what you needed to do....and you saw a side of this man that is enabling you to find a new perspective on the relationship...

proud of you :) The best is yet to come FOR ALL OF US...In time, YOU will find a good man and a healthy happy relationship...

xo

I am applauding Johnny and his supporters. Johnny, sometimes you have to dive back into the muck to determine that your treasure is not hidden there. And you are getting good feedback on your experience. Its just muck down there!.

mtumotr....thanx for the kind words...all I know is that we are blessed with a VERY special gift and we have all shared the same nightmare...we have all been brought together for a reason...so with that said, we just have to stick together and take good care of each other...and to help each other to heal ! I am grateful that you all have come in to my life.

Peace xo

Johnny, we all have to be ready to move on...then we do. Stay strong and I am very glad he is finally showing his true self so you can move forward with your life and meet a REAL romantic.
((hugs to you!))