its been nine months now after a ten year relationship, i have my good and bad days but mostly good as i have amazing support. My fear is knowing that i have read up about sociopaths it really scares me, my sociopath didn't hit me but he drained me and blamed me for things that didnt make sense, going through the years of being together its so ironic its hard somedaysto move forward especially when out of the blue you dream about them, and wake up as if your back to square one. but since he has been gone, i write in a journal events that occurred and i can put the pieces together. as my own way of healing, i now have implanted an image of him dead and never returning, and just thank him for actually saving my life as it could of been alot worse considering he used to watch murder mysteries hes done all the others apart from the cheating but now since he is gone im so convinced he has run off with someone else. i know for a fact after nine months he did not change his licence which makes me believe he has gone under another identity. as the renewal for his car came in the mail. i often wonder do they think of us. and get question consently what would you do if he ever shows up. to be quite honest i really dont know what i would do. i know i wont have him back, but i dont know how i would go. months back when he pretend to stage his own suicide he kept repeating im a bad bad man your a good women your better off with out me. he left for there days and ended up in a strangers laundry mat. now i know he sat there for three days what he was planning and thinking ill never know but the thing that makes me consently think is after returning because i placed him as a missing person he said these words. NO WOMEN has ever done that to me before and i thought you were going to hit me. i dont understand why he would say these things. well now hes gone left a note don't look for me not coming back no explanation, i am just worried about his next victim, as he is so unstable to the point may be just may be he might kill someone this time. he did threaten to burn the house down. but the good thing is i finally started to live again. so im just wondering has any experience the non contact after years then suddenly they show up. and what did you do. thanks hosana.