for myself. i had a plan t get myself out of here and safe away from my abusive family. but it seems they are 5 steps ahead of me to ruin the plan like they did every year in my history. my plan was to get my health well enough to be able to pick up the phone and get help to find another place to go to.

they do everything possible to keep my health bad in order to trap me and keep me with them. when they do that i completely lose my speech ability, i get trouble breathing and too weak and disoriented to know what to do or where i am. i even had a minor stroke at 29 yrs old due to them trying to keep me sick on purpose, i think theyre trying to make me become mentally disabled. half of my face is sagging down i cannot smile evenly due to what they did. maybe i dont get it how etreme of what theyre doing to me is.

but they would rather have me dead or a stroke than be free of them and sucessful and educated. if i cannot talk how can i present myself correctly and get help.

ive been waiting to recover and they will never allow that. meaning i have to realize there is no hope for me unless a superhero shows up. i cannot get myself out if i am not well enough to go down the street and talk,breathe with no problem

i need to pray that a miracle happens, im terrified of what they will do to me and also beyond ignorant of how dangerous they are. i forget what they have done and i go to denial to deal with this.

they never allowed me to have a job and im 29, my fathers best friends daughter killed herself last year due to stress her parents caused to her,abuse they did to her and bullies. i think my father got an idea and is terrorizing me more hoping that my spirit will break from the stress, get rid of my resolve, give up on my life plan

i need a window of oportunity wich i have not had they trap me my entire life. by making me physically not able to better myself and get a normal life.

i got yelled at today by both my parents over the phone. alot of gaslighting calling me stupid and worthless then threats. my father keeps threatening to lock me away in the mental hospital and telling me i need medication for psychosis while yelling to me on the phone.

its emotional abuse, he is the one who needs to be locked away in the mental home. where people will be safe from him.

im trying to better myself, im intelligent and have hope for the future and tons of potential and he keeps ruining that. with threats and control. he threatened to have me locked away the rest of my life, even threatened to have me framed for crimes to put me in jail.

by keeping me sick and under stress all the time it is trapping me , they might as well chain me to the front door to make sure i dont go anywhere, whats the difference. when i think about it. they kept me terribly sick that i couldnt leave the house for 6 months. they are wasting my time . life is very short. i told them who will financially support me when theyre too elderly or not here anymore, then they told me they will put me into a group home for mental patients to live out my days locked into a group home its scary, i cant comprehend the hatred they have for me..

why dont they let me be well and move forward with my plans and get a college degree nd a career so that i can take care of myself. they never let me do any plan of mine and then things dont work out each time i go along with what they want which lead me to beng 29 and disabled by them forced to be at home with them because of following only their plans.

they would go onto a ship sink it and make sure im on the boat with them. theyre miserable in life and think if they control me they will stay young and pretend its the 1990s still. they treat me like im 12 too.

my father sometimes cant remember things then gets furious angry and begins yelling at me over something that was not a problem 20 minutes before that. i think my parents will get worse and turn into old mean grouchy 80 yr olds who no one can deal with. i think my sisters will eventually have to put them into a nursing home when their older if they keep getting crazier and meaner to deal with.

their both serousely overweight. obese. but they dont understand what to do theres no logic. they binge eat spda, fried food, unhealthy fast food, donuts, cookies cake. my father has 12 packs of coca cola soda in the house at his office they drink coca cola at every meal claiming it helps them to digest the fatty food theyre eating.meanwhle besides eating entire bags of potato chips in 5 minutes and ice cream and unhealthy fried food, chocolate. they bought a tredmill

they go on the tredmill then get off fhe tredmill and grab a can of coke and some ice cream and chocolate to reward themselves. they dont lose any weight but dont understand why.

i think s dosnt understand logic sometimes on certain topics they can be very dumb but at the same time much more clever and have wisdom on more advanced topics that regular people dont understand.


my mother told me a few times that she wants to die. its a zoo here. i have to pray that i can be well enough to get the hell away from here

even the stress from them can make anyone lose their mind.