Victims of Psychopaths Community Group
Is he or she a sociopath or psychopath? Think we're only talking about serial killers here? Psychopaths, sociopaths and even narcissists come in every walk of life, every career level, and every socio-economic category.
for the last few days I have been so strong, after 3 months of no contact he made up an email and got threw to me, I didn’t respond but as the week went by I just had to put out my feelings it was like this overwhelming feeling that I couldn’t ignore so I texted him, I wish so much I didn’t ... he tried to tell me how much he loved me, he begged me to come see him, he doesn’t love her the way he loves me and I was strong and I didn’t go... well his ego got bruised and I think he really couldn’t believe that didn’t work on me, then he tried really messing with my head so he ended up telling me he’s done, yeah I wish, I well it’s a week to the day later and I am trying so hard to stay strong but as everyone knows who has been threw this it’s a trauma bond, addiction and all the opposite emotions, nothing in my life has ever been more difficult I know in my heart I am doing the right thing and I am so proud of myself I didn’t go yet I feel such this weight of guilt it’s so sick and twisted I haven’t heard him say he loved me that much in a long time part of me wanted to hear it and believe it but part of me knows most likely it was all fake just to get me there probably only to disguard me again, but I will never know for sure and that is what’s haunting me. I know I have to stay strong for my life he is a very sick and dangerous person so I know if I would ever get back with him I will die one way or another yet the pull of this bond is so strong that sometimes I forget well put it out of my mind how dangerous and evil he really is and I know in my heart he can never change even though he fakes it
I keep thinking about him today and it’s killing me, all the lies, and abuse and most likely cheating I just don’t want to cry anymore and I’m so sick of this pain, that he caused he is not worth it I know this deep within my heart yet I still feel this horrible, horrific pain as you know.
I’m so sorry you are going threw this as well, and you never know it might have been him that emailed you to mess with your head or he did give out your personal information they are capable of anything!!
Just to think I gave my heart and soul to this soulless creature who I believe is a demon who walks among us! He has even told me he was Satan yet I still wanted to help him, will this ever end I kinda feel like I’m back at square one because I let him mess with my head last week yet I’m so proud of myself that I didn’t go see him, he is such a sick person I used to feel bad for him which he just used against me, all he did was use me, that is so hard to look at and for years I was blinded by the fog now most of the time I can see who he truly is and it almost makes me literally sick, we are so lucky we got away from these people but my pain will probably last me forever, in time it will get better but I will never forget him that’s the truly sad part.
My prayers are with you as well, stay strong and know I’m here