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I feel that he is still winning

hosana
hosana
Its now been 5 months and today i didnt realize how time had gotten away from me, and i sat down and cried as if my hurt started all over again, he left without a goodbye nothing only dont look for me im not coming back and a pile of debt. that i have to somehow pay everything off on my own, While he has set himself up with a good life, and left me here in misery, Im falling behind in everything, i thought i had time on my side but i dont, i still dont know where he is only that he is in another state from the letters i got from the bank, , and then i went to my physiologist today and he said normally they do show up as they always wonder what you are doing, and what assests he has,
no matter i dont want him to show up ever, cause i dont know what i would do my hurt will turn to anger that my mind will be blank i wouldnt know what to do if he showed up because when you surpress so much hurt thats when your so outraged that you mind and body are in another dimenssion, i hate how i feel. its like im back to square one all over again im so confused of my journey feel so lonely and i had a dream of me not wanting to be here anymore.
spiritsprout
spiritsprout
I'm sorry things are being so difficult, hosana. I understand the feelings of frustration and being overwhelmed. Keep moving forward.... don't give up. I'm sending you a big (((Hug))) and hopes for better days ahead for you!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hosana....do you have animals? They can do wonders for the soul and lonliness. I too understand the frustration, and the first few days was devastated. Then I thought....wait a minute "I" control my feelings...and me alone. Just simply get in a good mood, and all the crap you have to deal with do it with your head held high that you survived it, you CAN do it, and you are stronger than you know. Mind set is a beautiful thing.
deleted_user
deleted_user
((((((((hosana))))))) I am so sorry. It is really a burden for you emotionally. I'm at a loss as to what to say that would be helpful accept I understand your fear and sense of feeling overwhelmed. People like you give me so much to be thankful for. I went NC and was never discarded. I always lived alone so I shared expenses with nobody and was left with no debts. Thank you for posting. It helps me to count my blessings. But again ((((((hosana))))
SonoMahi
SonoMahi
Hosana I have been there where you are today. It felt that my whole existence and everything I was and I had got multiplied with a zero. I was failing at everything, lost job, health, self wortha nd happiness.
By six months things started changing. It has been a year now and I am so much better now. Yes there will always be some bad days like these few days but this pain is nothing compared to what I have been through. . Hang in there, things will change. Hugsss
SonoMahi
SonoMahi
I am waiting for his downfall and I am sure one day it will happen. We may be still weak but we are moving on the journey of healing, its tough because the path goes upwards while he is moving fast, rolling down heading straight to hell.
hosana
hosana
Thank you everyone for your posts it really helps me get through my roughest days knowing i can reach out and people are there.
escapefor1
escapefor1
It often seems they are doing better and winning in the short run. Usually you will do so much better in the longer run. It is super hard to wait. And it seems hard to see a way out. But as you heal, answers just seem to come. Your ask now is just to hang in there for a while and be kind to yourself.