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i just spend a half hour typing , describing what my parents did to me and my sblings growing up, expliaining the type of people they are but my comp shut down and im too emotioanally drained to retype everything. so ill write a shorter post summarizing everything.
im 29 yrs old and have been abused by my parents growing up severely. they abused my other sisters too. but they treated me the most horrible. they did terrible things that are graphic and that they should never have put someone through. maybe ill rewrite that part later on. but growing up with them was horror. severe physical abuse me and my older sister were sexually abused by them. i suffered permanent life altering injuries due to their abuse and violence to me when i was a kid. i have a few physical health problems that are directly a result of the torture and abuse they did. such as one of them being early osteoporosis that i was diagnosed with at 22 which i probably had for many years before that due to malnutrition , not getting meals when i was growing up. deprived food from them and being forced to be underweight for years growing up. i got beaten if i tried to get food, but they were violent to me every day usually no matter what. i was severely neglected too by them.
my mother broke my wrist. my father beat me and i got other fractures from him that are serious.
but ill get to the point. after my older sister attempted suicide due to the abuse they were doing to her and i talked her out of it because no one else was there for her. i couldnt take it anymore what my parents were doing to us at home so i threatened to tell on them.
i even ran away a few times when i was 12. i was too scared of them.
my mother is a sadistic narcissist due to things shes done my whole life to people.
even once she physically abused a hispanic immigrant who came to work for us as a housekeeper. the housekeeper dropped hot food in aluminum foil on the kitchen floor which burned part of the floor. by acident. my mother got upset that part of the floor was ruined with a burn mark. so she fired the housekeeper and my sisters and i stood at the door as she was leaving , then my mother yells at her abusive to her and grabs the still burning hott aluminum foil with food in it and rubbed it onto her face burning the womans face and the poor woman was crying hysterically and ran away to the sidewalk. i was about 8 yrs old shocked at the time not able to believe what she did to her. the housekeeper didnt go to police because she was afraid due to her immigration status,. i couldnt do anything to help her but i felt bad for the woman.
but my mother did worse things to me.
my older sister told me my mother has bi polar disorder which maked her go on angry furious rages and be violent with severe anger problems harming people. staying up until 6am cleaning randomly, sleeping all day going down the steps with blood shot eyes drunk looking, then looking for someone to fight with or get violent to.
i think she also has multiple personality disorder due to some other things shes done my whole life.
but i do not believe she is a psychopath, shes too wreckless and dosnt plan things out, she does the mean horrific things impulsively or due to anger problem. she has mental illness
my father is a psychopath. very manipulative and one of the top liars out there, he can convince anyone anything and get away with things, some that are not legal. he plans out for months and years in advance revenge tactics for people who dont agree with him. he holds old grudges against people for small things they did decades ago, is still severely angry about them. brings them up.
he is sadistic and narcissistic too and is focused on his reputation. he sexually abused my older sister, had tons of pics of child porn in his home office. and still controls her today. she is 36 and has 3 small kids. he got her kicked out of law school so she has no career and relies on him for money because he ruined her marriage by trying to have her husband commited to a mental ward. he called police then told them to put him in the ambulance and take him to the local psych er to be questioned evaluated. he was stuck their the entire day and his family dosnt let him near my crazy parents now
my sister lives 4 blocks away from my parents now in a house my father bought for her. he even named her kids. he has sick control over the family. he financially supports her, bribes her with money.
ive never been allowed to be happy and he put me through things to silence me for life, maybe about the abuse and terror i witnessed against my sisters and i growing up. he did things to me i cannot tell people about because they wont understand and never will listen to me. no one even understands abuse. i get tons of questions from the people i did tell WHY did they abuse you, WHY would they abuse you. do they think i would know? why does anyone get abused? beccause they are a rotten person and deserve to be tortured? there is no answer. its hurtful to me. also out of people who understand abuse survivors how many of them know the first thing about psychopaths. almost none of them. which makes people not listen to you
anyways my father heard i was going to tell on them about what was happening to me, i could have died from what they were dong to me. my mother beat me 2 times onconscios that i blacked out from her hitting my head against the wall for what seeemed like forever then i woke up on the floor. then her and my 21 yr old sister cornered me outside my bedroom, my sister holding a lysol spray to spray me in the eyes while my mother took a broom and was beating me with it. i was trying to open my room door and couldnt open it. they ganged up on me and i was a skinny underweight 14 yr old kid, they wouldnt even let me get dinner after school. i had to sneak food and risked getting beaten for going to the kitchen.
i couldnt take it anymore and told myself i needed to tell, to get myself safe maybe to live in a foster home where i can get 3 meals a day and finish highschool and be around kids my age.
but i didnt realize what i was against , gullible honest trusting 14 yr old vs 50 yr old psychopath who abused and commited people before i was born. that meant risking his reputation and ideal plan for me if i wanted to get myself to safety and not be abused anymore.
then he locked the car door after school one day and him with my mother and the sister who sprayed the lysol at my face and was voilent to me all drove me an hour from home to a private owned psychiatric hospital. they spent the entire car trip yelling at me , insulting and cursing at me scaring the daylights out of me. by the time i got there they were all calm and i was a teenager crying hysterically like a yr old frantic and scared that i was just kidnapped by my terrible parents.
which made me look crazy when the workers saw me in the car. anyways my parents made up some stories about me to get me put away. d and d. devalue and discard smear campaign against me.
they put me away for 4 yrs until i was 18 and they had to do other things to put me away beccause i was anadult but i was put in about 15 different mental hospitals and lived there for no reason, no school no being a kid my age. i was drugged on tons of different psychiatric drugs, they didnt tell me why i was on them other then its between your parents and the doctor. since i wasnt 18 yet they didnt want to tell me why i was there. my parents would meet privately with the psychiatrists there. no one told me anything when i asked.
by the time i got out of the mental hospitals at 18 and was allowed to go back home i got to see my hospital records and saw that they diagnosed me with over 40 different psychiatric disorders based on things my parents and my fathers friend who is a psychiatrist told them.
i found out my parents were telling them outragous bizarre things in order for them to keep me there. my father knows alot about psychiatry so he knows how the system works, what to tell them.
but no psychiatrist ever told me this is what you have and why.....
because ive never actually had any symptoms of mental illness or any psychiatric disorder. my father the p was able to convince them of his bizarre stories about me without them questioning him or looking for proof.
my parents had to make me look crazy, build up records
my sisters apologized later on telling me my parents should have never pout me away because im not crazy and nothing is mentally wrong with you. they told me it was not right and feel bad that my parents lied about me and locked me away for no reason. no one who meets or knows me thinks im mentally ill.
only the people my father gets involved with and the people he tells his stories too . but when hes out of the picture then poof magically no sign of mental illness. the only time anyone ever said i was crazy is when my father gets to talk to them and convince them of his ufo magical dinosaur lies about me.
once he gets to people it is too late then they usually never believe or even listen to me after. he has some type of convincing skill over people.
he dosnt fear the law , he is cool and collected around police, courts, judges, doctors you name it. he even made friends with the local police department laughing and talking with them like old friends.
im scared of what he can do to me. when i turned 18 he couldnt put me away anymore by driving me to the looney bin. so he began going to court against me every few months to torment me with different mental health court orders, court mandated psychiatric treatment, every court order there was out there he got.
used my underage mental records from when i was a teenager living in the mental hospitals as evidence that im crazy and need court orders
then he would call police on me telling me them random things against me that i was suicidal when i was not, telling them simply that im emotionally disturbed ot acting out or not on my medication when in reality there was no medication or prescription, whutever he could tell them to get me put away.
he did a game against me, terrorirzing me.
he would make up different bizarre facts from nowhere, then change his story 4or 5 times forgetting the details he told a day earlier and then when questioned about changing the details he told them he never said it even tho it was wrtten down.
i one time went in a taxi to the emergency room because of stomache pain, from take out food fish.
then he heard i was going to be in the hospital so he took that opportunity to try to have me put away. he uses any opportunity to have me put away. he called the nurses station telling them im emotionally disturbed and threatened suicide and to keep me there and dont let me go because am suicidal . i was not suicidal, never have been in my life.
even tho i was there for a totally different reason not relevant to that, the workers at the er told me they were scared by my father telling them im suicidal and that they need to put me in the psych er. i dont even know how my father found out which er i was at. i thought its patient confidentialty, but hes able to talk anyone into telling him
i can never let my father know if i go to the hospital even if its for a toothache or sprained knee or whatever because he will take any opportunity to try to have me commited.
the next day he completely denied to my mother and to the hospital staff that he ever said i was suicidal, he says he never said it even tho the nurses told me and the psychiatrist on call and others at the hospital were all told the reason he is worried and needs them to keep me there is because of suicide threat. he didnt even remember the next day what the reason was.. forgot his lies
i had to spend 3 days arguing and being medicated pleading for my freedom trying to explain my father to the psych ward staff, before i even knew what a psychopath was which probably made me look crazy anyways. try explaining to psychiatrists that your relative is dong a game against you,gaslighting and looking for revenge and that makes u look like a paranoid idiot.
eventually after my father changed his story they let me go out.
anyways after doing games against me and calling police on me over 100 times, sometimes 3 times in 2 days to report an emotionally unstable person like he did to my brother in law, his sister and my other sister.
then when i was 25 he met with a psychistrist who i never met, never was a patient of either. to get him to write a letter for court writing that im crazy and a danger to the community.
out of nowhere, randomly.
he went to court against me to get legal control of me for life. to make me a ward of the state. he made friends with the judge , the court appointed psychologist. while the case was delayed for months. he spent months talking on the phone to the court psychologist being buddies with him. he convinced them that im crazy.
he even got on the phone and met with the court appointed legal aid lawyer who was assigned to represent me and convinced him that im crazy to and not to listen to me, which happened he didnt want to help me or believe me
i couldnt get to the court because im physically disabled due to my health problem. mobility trouble due to injury from the bone density problem. so my father his psychologist friend, the court judge and his 2 lawyers, the group of men there in court decided that im no one an idiot girl with no potential and they wrote that im mentally incompetene according to supreme court. mentally incapacitated and then gave my father complete legal control over me for life.
basically im legally owned/married to my p father. the same person im terrified of and who has put my well being in danger and led about me since i was in preschool.
im never allowed to marry now, or chose any life i want. my father has total legal control of me, he will fight tooth and nail to keep control over me. once he gets too old then im handed over to a state mental health agency where they will lock me away for life in a state run mental institution. where i will become money profit for that agency
the court order says that im under legal control and cannot be allowed to make decisions due to severe schitzophrenia and autism spectrum disorder, high functioning aspergers autism. where did they get that from. i am not autistic and do not have aspergers but the court papers say it. i dont know what my father told them to make them write that. probable gas lighting and reflecting because psychopaths do not have emotions so he wants to say that im the one who dosnt understand emotions. i do understand emotions and non verbal cues so theres no reason for a court to write slander saying im autistic.
i dont know how he got them to write that im schitzophrenic but he probably did many things to make me look bad like im a crazy dumb girl who dosnt know what shes saying. but i do not have schitzophrenia i never did. im normal and thinking and reacting how anyone would to a not normal abusive situation. but ive never done anything or thought anything where anyone might think im schitzo
im stuck with the dumb court order, terrible embarrased i can never go on a date or ever find love because im embarrased to tell them about the abuse and how my father wont legally allow me to get married ever. which might make me prone to meeting another s due to me looking vulnerable like a victim.
they could prey on a victimized person who has low self esteem . i can never work because my father could take any money that i make and get control over my finances. i dont even know what my rights are under adult guardianship due to some cruel male judge who wrote that im too mentally incapacitated to think for myself
i feel like im living in saudi arabia or a country where women dont have rights and need to live according to what male relatives tell them.
they ruined my future, chance at a career, i wanted a college degree, to have friends, be independant, live on my own. get married ,start a family.
im 29 and they are still controlling me forcing me to live in their home, telling everyone they meet that their daughter is crazy to get pity from others.
another thing is on bad thing leads to other bad things. aftr they got the court order nd i was stressed from trying to call every legal agency i knew to try to fight the court order. i got very sick from a life threatening flesh eating bactria infection. MRSA staph. i had to quit going looking for lawyers and focus on going to doctors for my infection. what a coincidence? at the height of your life 25 develope a difficult to cure life altering disease
while everyone my age was finishing grad school,marrying, traveling etc
my doctors didnt know what it was that by the time i was diagnosed accuratly it was treated too late and no antibiotics helped after that. i remained severely sick and weak for years to weak t even get down the stairs or out of my seat. covered in horrible rashes boils and opened wounds
flu symptoms terrible pain, i said this is it, im done with.
my psychologist who i was secretly seeing to get my own letter for court evaluating me without my father involved or knowing. she told me nothing is wrong with me and that i never belonged in the mental hospitals and that i have no psych problems and that my only trouble is social anxiety due to the abuse and that im mentally fine and need to get a career and get out of my fathers control. she told me he is the problem.
she saw how terribly sick i was getting each apointment and told me go home get to doctors about my health problem and come back when im recovered from the infection.
ive been sick for 3 more years now (4 yrs total) and no recovery, that is because of the mrsa colonization in my household and my immune system is down from it. ive tried every antibiotic, dozens of doctors,specialists, trips to the emergency room.
the only option for me at this point after 4 yrs of having life threatening medical infection is to isolate myself completely. live alone. away from my crazy sicko family and their crowded home.
i got the mrsa from my mother who was sick first from it
i need to get up go live alone some where away from people , my own apartment anywhere until i can recovr and get my immune system back to normal.i love being alone for some reason or only with a pet. maybe due to the terrible mistreatment i went through
i could die eventually if i stay like this. my parents dont care that im sick.
i feel like theres nothing i can do. my parents gave me some life threatening disabling medical disease, my father has every organazation and everyone convinced that im crazy so dont listen to anything i say.
i told my doctor that i need to get out of my home and have an unhappy home life with my parents but they told me that they cant do anything for me and they sent me in circles to others who tell me its not their job to help
police wont help me because im the supposedly crazy annoying girl who they bring to the psych ward at my fathers request. they didnt even believe me when i told them i was the victim and abused they dismisses me as a unstable crazy liar because my father told them im emotionally disturbed.
social services agencies dont help me,such as adult protective services for the same reason because of my father using the words emotionally disturbed to describe me and all those court and mental hospital records he made against me. so they refused to do anyting for me besides put me back in mental hospitals to get me awwy from the abuse, ive done that before got taken out of my parents home, put away into the psych hospital drugged then put on a waiting list to be put ito a more permnanent mental institution or group home for the developmentally challenged waited months then there was no room for me then sent back out back to my parents
revolving door. putting me into the mental hospital isnt going to get me the happyness i need or a career or independence. i dont even belong in any of those group homes or institutions
i need to get rid of my p father, get myself independant and find friends who respect me and are there for me.a nice career, my own home. etc
i need to get rid of my infection
i need to get rid of my fathers court order saying that im not mentally competent
i need to avoid forced psychiatry that my father does as a game. i was cleared of having any mental illness i do not have one but my fathers lies cause people to say that im crazy
how do i even win against my father or deal with him
he has control over his other adult children but not legal control. my other 2 adult siblings live at home here and he controls them like their in highschool.
im 29 yrs old and have been abused by my parents growing up severely. they abused my other sisters too. but they treated me the most horrible. they did terrible things that are graphic and that they should never have put someone through. maybe ill rewrite that part later on. but growing up with them was horror. severe physical abuse me and my older sister were sexually abused by them. i suffered permanent life altering injuries due to their abuse and violence to me when i was a kid. i have a few physical health problems that are directly a result of the torture and abuse they did. such as one of them being early osteoporosis that i was diagnosed with at 22 which i probably had for many years before that due to malnutrition , not getting meals when i was growing up. deprived food from them and being forced to be underweight for years growing up. i got beaten if i tried to get food, but they were violent to me every day usually no matter what. i was severely neglected too by them.
my mother broke my wrist. my father beat me and i got other fractures from him that are serious.
but ill get to the point. after my older sister attempted suicide due to the abuse they were doing to her and i talked her out of it because no one else was there for her. i couldnt take it anymore what my parents were doing to us at home so i threatened to tell on them.
i even ran away a few times when i was 12. i was too scared of them.
my mother is a sadistic narcissist due to things shes done my whole life to people.
even once she physically abused a hispanic immigrant who came to work for us as a housekeeper. the housekeeper dropped hot food in aluminum foil on the kitchen floor which burned part of the floor. by acident. my mother got upset that part of the floor was ruined with a burn mark. so she fired the housekeeper and my sisters and i stood at the door as she was leaving , then my mother yells at her abusive to her and grabs the still burning hott aluminum foil with food in it and rubbed it onto her face burning the womans face and the poor woman was crying hysterically and ran away to the sidewalk. i was about 8 yrs old shocked at the time not able to believe what she did to her. the housekeeper didnt go to police because she was afraid due to her immigration status,. i couldnt do anything to help her but i felt bad for the woman.
but my mother did worse things to me.
my older sister told me my mother has bi polar disorder which maked her go on angry furious rages and be violent with severe anger problems harming people. staying up until 6am cleaning randomly, sleeping all day going down the steps with blood shot eyes drunk looking, then looking for someone to fight with or get violent to.
i think she also has multiple personality disorder due to some other things shes done my whole life.
but i do not believe she is a psychopath, shes too wreckless and dosnt plan things out, she does the mean horrific things impulsively or due to anger problem. she has mental illness
my father is a psychopath. very manipulative and one of the top liars out there, he can convince anyone anything and get away with things, some that are not legal. he plans out for months and years in advance revenge tactics for people who dont agree with him. he holds old grudges against people for small things they did decades ago, is still severely angry about them. brings them up.
he is sadistic and narcissistic too and is focused on his reputation. he sexually abused my older sister, had tons of pics of child porn in his home office. and still controls her today. she is 36 and has 3 small kids. he got her kicked out of law school so she has no career and relies on him for money because he ruined her marriage by trying to have her husband commited to a mental ward. he called police then told them to put him in the ambulance and take him to the local psych er to be questioned evaluated. he was stuck their the entire day and his family dosnt let him near my crazy parents now
my sister lives 4 blocks away from my parents now in a house my father bought for her. he even named her kids. he has sick control over the family. he financially supports her, bribes her with money.
ive never been allowed to be happy and he put me through things to silence me for life, maybe about the abuse and terror i witnessed against my sisters and i growing up. he did things to me i cannot tell people about because they wont understand and never will listen to me. no one even understands abuse. i get tons of questions from the people i did tell WHY did they abuse you, WHY would they abuse you. do they think i would know? why does anyone get abused? beccause they are a rotten person and deserve to be tortured? there is no answer. its hurtful to me. also out of people who understand abuse survivors how many of them know the first thing about psychopaths. almost none of them. which makes people not listen to you
anyways my father heard i was going to tell on them about what was happening to me, i could have died from what they were dong to me. my mother beat me 2 times onconscios that i blacked out from her hitting my head against the wall for what seeemed like forever then i woke up on the floor. then her and my 21 yr old sister cornered me outside my bedroom, my sister holding a lysol spray to spray me in the eyes while my mother took a broom and was beating me with it. i was trying to open my room door and couldnt open it. they ganged up on me and i was a skinny underweight 14 yr old kid, they wouldnt even let me get dinner after school. i had to sneak food and risked getting beaten for going to the kitchen.
i couldnt take it anymore and told myself i needed to tell, to get myself safe maybe to live in a foster home where i can get 3 meals a day and finish highschool and be around kids my age.
but i didnt realize what i was against , gullible honest trusting 14 yr old vs 50 yr old psychopath who abused and commited people before i was born. that meant risking his reputation and ideal plan for me if i wanted to get myself to safety and not be abused anymore.
then he locked the car door after school one day and him with my mother and the sister who sprayed the lysol at my face and was voilent to me all drove me an hour from home to a private owned psychiatric hospital. they spent the entire car trip yelling at me , insulting and cursing at me scaring the daylights out of me. by the time i got there they were all calm and i was a teenager crying hysterically like a yr old frantic and scared that i was just kidnapped by my terrible parents.
which made me look crazy when the workers saw me in the car. anyways my parents made up some stories about me to get me put away. d and d. devalue and discard smear campaign against me.
they put me away for 4 yrs until i was 18 and they had to do other things to put me away beccause i was anadult but i was put in about 15 different mental hospitals and lived there for no reason, no school no being a kid my age. i was drugged on tons of different psychiatric drugs, they didnt tell me why i was on them other then its between your parents and the doctor. since i wasnt 18 yet they didnt want to tell me why i was there. my parents would meet privately with the psychiatrists there. no one told me anything when i asked.
by the time i got out of the mental hospitals at 18 and was allowed to go back home i got to see my hospital records and saw that they diagnosed me with over 40 different psychiatric disorders based on things my parents and my fathers friend who is a psychiatrist told them.
i found out my parents were telling them outragous bizarre things in order for them to keep me there. my father knows alot about psychiatry so he knows how the system works, what to tell them.
but no psychiatrist ever told me this is what you have and why.....
because ive never actually had any symptoms of mental illness or any psychiatric disorder. my father the p was able to convince them of his bizarre stories about me without them questioning him or looking for proof.
my parents had to make me look crazy, build up records
my sisters apologized later on telling me my parents should have never pout me away because im not crazy and nothing is mentally wrong with you. they told me it was not right and feel bad that my parents lied about me and locked me away for no reason. no one who meets or knows me thinks im mentally ill.
only the people my father gets involved with and the people he tells his stories too . but when hes out of the picture then poof magically no sign of mental illness. the only time anyone ever said i was crazy is when my father gets to talk to them and convince them of his ufo magical dinosaur lies about me.
once he gets to people it is too late then they usually never believe or even listen to me after. he has some type of convincing skill over people.
he dosnt fear the law , he is cool and collected around police, courts, judges, doctors you name it. he even made friends with the local police department laughing and talking with them like old friends.
im scared of what he can do to me. when i turned 18 he couldnt put me away anymore by driving me to the looney bin. so he began going to court against me every few months to torment me with different mental health court orders, court mandated psychiatric treatment, every court order there was out there he got.
used my underage mental records from when i was a teenager living in the mental hospitals as evidence that im crazy and need court orders
then he would call police on me telling me them random things against me that i was suicidal when i was not, telling them simply that im emotionally disturbed ot acting out or not on my medication when in reality there was no medication or prescription, whutever he could tell them to get me put away.
he did a game against me, terrorirzing me.
he would make up different bizarre facts from nowhere, then change his story 4or 5 times forgetting the details he told a day earlier and then when questioned about changing the details he told them he never said it even tho it was wrtten down.
i one time went in a taxi to the emergency room because of stomache pain, from take out food fish.
then he heard i was going to be in the hospital so he took that opportunity to try to have me put away. he uses any opportunity to have me put away. he called the nurses station telling them im emotionally disturbed and threatened suicide and to keep me there and dont let me go because am suicidal . i was not suicidal, never have been in my life.
even tho i was there for a totally different reason not relevant to that, the workers at the er told me they were scared by my father telling them im suicidal and that they need to put me in the psych er. i dont even know how my father found out which er i was at. i thought its patient confidentialty, but hes able to talk anyone into telling him
i can never let my father know if i go to the hospital even if its for a toothache or sprained knee or whatever because he will take any opportunity to try to have me commited.
the next day he completely denied to my mother and to the hospital staff that he ever said i was suicidal, he says he never said it even tho the nurses told me and the psychiatrist on call and others at the hospital were all told the reason he is worried and needs them to keep me there is because of suicide threat. he didnt even remember the next day what the reason was.. forgot his lies
i had to spend 3 days arguing and being medicated pleading for my freedom trying to explain my father to the psych ward staff, before i even knew what a psychopath was which probably made me look crazy anyways. try explaining to psychiatrists that your relative is dong a game against you,gaslighting and looking for revenge and that makes u look like a paranoid idiot.
eventually after my father changed his story they let me go out.
anyways after doing games against me and calling police on me over 100 times, sometimes 3 times in 2 days to report an emotionally unstable person like he did to my brother in law, his sister and my other sister.
then when i was 25 he met with a psychistrist who i never met, never was a patient of either. to get him to write a letter for court writing that im crazy and a danger to the community.
out of nowhere, randomly.
he went to court against me to get legal control of me for life. to make me a ward of the state. he made friends with the judge , the court appointed psychologist. while the case was delayed for months. he spent months talking on the phone to the court psychologist being buddies with him. he convinced them that im crazy.
he even got on the phone and met with the court appointed legal aid lawyer who was assigned to represent me and convinced him that im crazy to and not to listen to me, which happened he didnt want to help me or believe me
i couldnt get to the court because im physically disabled due to my health problem. mobility trouble due to injury from the bone density problem. so my father his psychologist friend, the court judge and his 2 lawyers, the group of men there in court decided that im no one an idiot girl with no potential and they wrote that im mentally incompetene according to supreme court. mentally incapacitated and then gave my father complete legal control over me for life.
basically im legally owned/married to my p father. the same person im terrified of and who has put my well being in danger and led about me since i was in preschool.
im never allowed to marry now, or chose any life i want. my father has total legal control of me, he will fight tooth and nail to keep control over me. once he gets too old then im handed over to a state mental health agency where they will lock me away for life in a state run mental institution. where i will become money profit for that agency
the court order says that im under legal control and cannot be allowed to make decisions due to severe schitzophrenia and autism spectrum disorder, high functioning aspergers autism. where did they get that from. i am not autistic and do not have aspergers but the court papers say it. i dont know what my father told them to make them write that. probable gas lighting and reflecting because psychopaths do not have emotions so he wants to say that im the one who dosnt understand emotions. i do understand emotions and non verbal cues so theres no reason for a court to write slander saying im autistic.
i dont know how he got them to write that im schitzophrenic but he probably did many things to make me look bad like im a crazy dumb girl who dosnt know what shes saying. but i do not have schitzophrenia i never did. im normal and thinking and reacting how anyone would to a not normal abusive situation. but ive never done anything or thought anything where anyone might think im schitzo
im stuck with the dumb court order, terrible embarrased i can never go on a date or ever find love because im embarrased to tell them about the abuse and how my father wont legally allow me to get married ever. which might make me prone to meeting another s due to me looking vulnerable like a victim.
they could prey on a victimized person who has low self esteem . i can never work because my father could take any money that i make and get control over my finances. i dont even know what my rights are under adult guardianship due to some cruel male judge who wrote that im too mentally incapacitated to think for myself
i feel like im living in saudi arabia or a country where women dont have rights and need to live according to what male relatives tell them.
they ruined my future, chance at a career, i wanted a college degree, to have friends, be independant, live on my own. get married ,start a family.
im 29 and they are still controlling me forcing me to live in their home, telling everyone they meet that their daughter is crazy to get pity from others.
another thing is on bad thing leads to other bad things. aftr they got the court order nd i was stressed from trying to call every legal agency i knew to try to fight the court order. i got very sick from a life threatening flesh eating bactria infection. MRSA staph. i had to quit going looking for lawyers and focus on going to doctors for my infection. what a coincidence? at the height of your life 25 develope a difficult to cure life altering disease
while everyone my age was finishing grad school,marrying, traveling etc
my doctors didnt know what it was that by the time i was diagnosed accuratly it was treated too late and no antibiotics helped after that. i remained severely sick and weak for years to weak t even get down the stairs or out of my seat. covered in horrible rashes boils and opened wounds
flu symptoms terrible pain, i said this is it, im done with.
my psychologist who i was secretly seeing to get my own letter for court evaluating me without my father involved or knowing. she told me nothing is wrong with me and that i never belonged in the mental hospitals and that i have no psych problems and that my only trouble is social anxiety due to the abuse and that im mentally fine and need to get a career and get out of my fathers control. she told me he is the problem.
she saw how terribly sick i was getting each apointment and told me go home get to doctors about my health problem and come back when im recovered from the infection.
ive been sick for 3 more years now (4 yrs total) and no recovery, that is because of the mrsa colonization in my household and my immune system is down from it. ive tried every antibiotic, dozens of doctors,specialists, trips to the emergency room.
the only option for me at this point after 4 yrs of having life threatening medical infection is to isolate myself completely. live alone. away from my crazy sicko family and their crowded home.
i got the mrsa from my mother who was sick first from it
i need to get up go live alone some where away from people , my own apartment anywhere until i can recovr and get my immune system back to normal.i love being alone for some reason or only with a pet. maybe due to the terrible mistreatment i went through
i could die eventually if i stay like this. my parents dont care that im sick.
i feel like theres nothing i can do. my parents gave me some life threatening disabling medical disease, my father has every organazation and everyone convinced that im crazy so dont listen to anything i say.
i told my doctor that i need to get out of my home and have an unhappy home life with my parents but they told me that they cant do anything for me and they sent me in circles to others who tell me its not their job to help
police wont help me because im the supposedly crazy annoying girl who they bring to the psych ward at my fathers request. they didnt even believe me when i told them i was the victim and abused they dismisses me as a unstable crazy liar because my father told them im emotionally disturbed.
social services agencies dont help me,such as adult protective services for the same reason because of my father using the words emotionally disturbed to describe me and all those court and mental hospital records he made against me. so they refused to do anyting for me besides put me back in mental hospitals to get me awwy from the abuse, ive done that before got taken out of my parents home, put away into the psych hospital drugged then put on a waiting list to be put ito a more permnanent mental institution or group home for the developmentally challenged waited months then there was no room for me then sent back out back to my parents
revolving door. putting me into the mental hospital isnt going to get me the happyness i need or a career or independence. i dont even belong in any of those group homes or institutions
i need to get rid of my p father, get myself independant and find friends who respect me and are there for me.a nice career, my own home. etc
i need to get rid of my infection
i need to get rid of my fathers court order saying that im not mentally competent
i need to avoid forced psychiatry that my father does as a game. i was cleared of having any mental illness i do not have one but my fathers lies cause people to say that im crazy
how do i even win against my father or deal with him
he has control over his other adult children but not legal control. my other 2 adult siblings live at home here and he controls them like their in highschool.
he is wasting away my life ,taking me away from any career and using the excuse such as shes crazy , to prevent me from living life.
It seems no contact under your circumstances will be difficult. I wonder (I am not sure where you are located) have you considered contacting the American Civil Liberties Union? This is a VERY difficult case but if you have at least one psychologist who has diagnosed you appropriately, there may be some hope they could emancipate you from your parents. Please keep a papertrail of everything you have had to endure. Journal it. Blog it anonymously if you can. Are there extended family members (ie aunts and uncles) who are aware of the reality of your situation and can assist you?
Another thought, have you considered doing something drastic like contacting Dr. Phil or Oprah with your story?
Hugs again.
i tried contacting my extended family but they dont want to get involved, they have their own problems to deal with and ive never been close to them.
im too embarrased to go on tv or to anyone like dr phil because im ashamed and i know what will happen if i even embarass my family locally. i cannot imagine the retaliation against me if i went public to someone like a talk show.. they would hate for their reputation to be at risk,
my parents will do anything to keep their reputation. my father still holds grudges at me today yelling at me how in 4th grade i came to school with band aids on my arms and it destroyed his reputation. he always talked about how im the threat to his reputation. accusations. he told people hes embarrased of me
i grew up in a secretive religous type of community where people dont talk about their families or air dirty laundry. im also embarrased and ashamed of the abuse to me because i was victimized suvbconsciousely i think i must be a bad person or done something to deserve abuse. i feel like an outsider or different from society who didnt grow up going through mistreatment like i did.people might see me as some strange poor victim and not equal. i dont know how to go about being an adult in society after surviving terrible childhood abuse . most people cannot relate so i cant go around telling everyone yes i was beaten every day that i got off the school bus or i didnt get to go to a thanksgiving meal growing up or i didnt have even shoes that i needed when i outgrew the old ones etc
there might be stigma like look there goes that poor victim. look thats the woman who was held hostage by taliban, , thats the woman who escaped the shooting ,thats the woman from the news who was mugged of her purse.
even tho its not th victims fault society looks at them weird like their different because their life is different from the conventional normal children from happy chldhoods with supportive parents to help them get careers and be independant adults
even have the power to Sue the city if you have a good lawyer. Ofcourse, you would have to expose your story to a big time journalist first. You have a choice to expose yourself or they can disguise your face and voice. I would prefer being exposed, but hey, that's me. That's what I would do if I wanted to break free from evil. You would finally get to live your own life away from these people.
my cousin got abused as a child by her mother, her mother was attention seeking and went to the media many times to publicly embarass her daughter and her ex husband claiming it was her husband who mistreated and abused the child. that ruined my cousins life,she had to leave the religous community too, go into hiding, it affected her reputation, she lived scared and she is older then me now and still terrified of her mother and the media articles on her claiming she suffered child abuse.. if you google her name it says terrible non true things about her saying she was abused as a child by her father which she has told our family it is not true. she had to even move out of state to avoid the bad reputation she got due to being a poster child for supposed child abuse victims in the 80s. because her mother went all over the media and talk shows to lie about and embarass her ex husband.
im not sure the media is the best choice due to people i know who had bad experiences with the media. it didnt help them. my parents would also never agree to go on a talk show about anything. they are severely private secretive people, they act like their reputation is more important than air. they wont even say hello to the neighbors because they dont want anyone to mind their business.
i dont have money for a top lawyer who can help me. the free lawyers from legal aid are not the best lawyers.
even if i do manage to get away, they never let me learn to be an adult and have adult skills. they brainwashed me to be financially dependant on them. i have a physical disability now that might not go away ever so my doctor told me i cannot work because of it
how can i go into the world out there and support myself if i cannot work. i suffer from terrible chronic pain every day due to the back injury, bone density issues, which is the same reason i have the mobility problems that prevent me from going to court.
i qualify for disability assistance but what will 600 or 700 dollars a month do to support me financially pay my bills. new york is expensive here. they dont give you enough money to survive on your own. im scared to go out there to be independant as a disabled person even tho that is what i have hoped for for years to become independant.
i might be able to get a work from home job since getting places is dffcult for me.
also i dont even see myself getting rid of the court order or going to media or anything else until i get rid of my severe infection that im very tired from every day,
i wonder if theres anywhere i can get up and go to where i can live alone, no roommate, my own kitchen, bathroom , living area. to stay there for a few months to heal from my mrsa infection. because im probably contagous anyways so its best not to be in living spaces with other people. even now here at my parents house i designated a seperate room and bathroom where no one goes to. which did help eliminate a bunch of the mrsa symptoms.
i would go to a domestic violence shelter, i think they accept anyone of any type of family or domestic abuse, not just a relationship or husband as the abuser. but it is crowded and i think i would be living with other people. i dont know how inner city domestic violence shelters work but i assume everyone lives together or they assign you to live with other women or roommate,which would be terrible for me due to that i have the contagous mrsa infection and i can get very sick from being in crowds because it knocked down my immune system to defend against every day bacteria or staph bacteria that lives on half of the public.
either way even if the media is one option i cant do that until i get rid of the mrsa disease that i have, which will go away only if i get away from my parents and live in a clean enviroment away from any people to get time for myself to recover, maybe few months
if i go to a shelter would they have anywhere that i could live completely alone?,anyone would could get me my own apartment for a few months untl i recover from my bacteria infection and then go look for a work from home job or a sedentary part time job. anywhere that i can have my own kitchen, bathroom, living room etc no shared living areas
i think the main problem to deal with is my flesh eating virus illness now (antibotic resistant mrsa)
then after that get rid of my father and worry about supporting myself and getting a life or career,job for myself
i need an advocate i think, maybe people to stand behind me and speak on my behalf if my father attempts to control me or force me to live at home. because i canot deal alone with police, courts,lawyers.
if i had people on my side to protect me from what my father says then that would help,sort of like they can say im their family instead of my fathers familyproperty etc
ive been isolated by my parents my whole life so i never had many opportunities to make friends or develop social skills. then for the past 7 yrs ive been dealng with an injury, medical illness so i havent been able to go be around people my age or find friends.
with the trauma of what i went through, the low self esteem issues and thinking poorly of myself i have trouble standng up for myself or being assertive in person. i dont get my point across well to others, im soft spoken, have social anxiety especially when im the center of attention in any group or talking. so that itself makes it more difficult for me to make friends or be listened to or get my point across to others to stand up for myself. anyways for some reason it is easier for me to type things out on the computer, instead of talk to people in person which is related to the social anxiety. im a severe introvert too. i can go almost to a panick/anxiety attack if im ever the center of attention in certain situations out there in person. i get embrarrased over everything. but anyways if being a severe introvert/social anxiety/shyness is the worst thing that messed me up from the child abuse then im very very lucky. some people get messee up much worse after growing up with abuse such as going to drugs/alchohol/depression self harm/ endng up in prison
im lucky ive been more mentally resistant to what i went through. i think theres was even a time for years that i had ptsd, nightmares, flashback, i over that now mainly.
my parents threatened me every year of my life not to tell on them or embarass their reputation or i will pay. im legitimately scared to embarass them. i cannot even get to a tv studio, i cannot get on a plane to the dr phil show in illinois. i have trouble right now even brushing my hair, taking care of my apparance due to my illness, i gained 50 pounds from it and im humiliated at my apparance alone. now is not the time to go on national tv. i even have trouble talking sometimes due to the neurolgical effects of the mrsa
i want to quietly resolve the problem,snEAK away somewhere and not bother my parents anymore, they are old, aging senior citizenz, the both of them are almost 70 yrs old.
another reason i cannot go to dr phil is because my siister is in a custody battle against hr ex husband who is an s.she has 3 small childrn whom the court gave custody to her and my parents. if her ex s finds out he will hav the court take the kids away and live with him or who knows, mistreated worse. his family is crazier than mine tho
i feel bad for my sisters kids and my parents will get even with me if i make her lose custody of the kids
but oprah is not taped anymore, dr phil is in illnois and my doctor dosnt allow m to travel du to health problem. im too sick to go out of the home most of the time am homebound.
there must be something else i can do bcause no i cannot get to a tv studio.
im too disabled to go out of home 90 percent of the days.
another thing to help you undestand why i dont want to do national tv shows is because my family are
orth* edocks jooz (i dont want to spell it correctly because im scard of it showing up in the search bar)
i would ruffle feathers and create antisemiitizz am by being on tv .reprsenting every joo izsh person out there. the media could claim look joo izsh people are violent and crazy etc they mistreat their own kids
the other women from my religion who did speak out nationally get death threats against them years after speaking out. one woman about my age wrote a book about hr abuse.she gets death threats
id end up representing my entire religion.
but its not physically possible for me to gt to a tv studio and they wouldnt put me on tv how i look now. i cannot care for my appearance or even go near people due to my illness
i sleep the entire day anyways canot get out of the house to a tv studio or get to chicago. not allowed on a plane