I am so sorry. I do know you will make the best choice for you and your child because That is what Mommas do! No matter what you will have the strength to raise your child because God will see you through, I promise you that. That child is not a mistake.

You now have a new priority. It's not about him and whether he will be in and out but about you and your child and what's best for the two of you. You can't be wheeled back in if you choose not to be. You are in charge of your life and what you will and won't accept in it. It will be difficult but as Kellum10 said, "God will see you through". Have faith in His plan even if you don't understand/see it.
Hugs

Thank you for the encouraging words and support, I'm still just really confused and kinda angry about the whole situation. The timing is horrible I don't know if it's a sign from the man above or the devil trying to drag me down..I know it's wrong to think that way but after everything I've been through I just don't know what to think anymore...

Hi there sweets81,
I hope you are doing fine. It broke me down reading your post as I am in fact still recovering from a sociopath relationship. I honestly think that it is better to see your child as a part of you. As we know although they are monster but we know who we are. We are feeling hurt because we have heart while they don't feel a thing since they are as you already know a sociopath ( sick person ). Forgive yourself for the mistake and forgive him for the sake of your child. Give you and your child opportunity to finally can experience happy life. Free from emotional abusive. Pray to God and hope He will give a life partner for you. As if that's not happening, pray so that He grant you a brave momma's heart and able to bear this burden alongside with your child. Recover and move on... It is hard but I promise you are not alone and you can do it eventually...

Sorry it took so long for me to post again! Thank you all for the support and encouraging words! Unfortunately due to my mental and physical health I was unable to carry my baby to term.. I truly appreciate the support I was given from my DS Family!!

I am very happy for you. Hopefully, you can now resume your life in a positive direction again.

I would talk to your therapist about this. Also maybe up your game in people who support you. Talk to them as often as possible. You are going to need babysitters.