does anyone here know why s/p monitor their victims and cyberstalk them while pretending to be other people?

there is this new term called catfish, where people go on the internet under a fake identity to talk to someone and convince them they are someone who they are not or who is a fake identity. it was on the news recently and it is common among young people today teenagers-30 yr old. they had a reality tv show abot it where people were talking to fake identities on the net and didnt know it was a trick or not the person they were told it is

i ran into a few psychopaths over the past couple of yrs, one of them decided to hack into my computer,do back ground checks on me and my family,they listen in on my family members cell phones and mine and have done other things to monitor me. they know everything i do on the internet, they followed me to chat rooms since they knew what room and what my nickname was and then told me they are a stranger and then did mind sgames after to make me think i was crazy and getting suspicous.

i dont care anymore that they hacked my computer or listen to me on the phone, i have much worse things to worry about that i dont care i haev apathy now. what are they going to hear nothing. they wil hear me ordering groceries . even tho that is invasion of privacy. id rather be not watched

one time i remember they freaked out at me over instant mesenger because i came home at 9am the next day after spending the entire night in the emergency room. they asked me different questions if i had a boyfriend. they are dumb. im not the type of girl who would spend a night with a boyfriend.. im religous and do not touch men before marriage.

very possessive but not intelligent.

anyways i have no way to know if he is watching me still, who knows.

but he kept asking me to go on video camera and send pics to him which i never did. i dont send my pictures out to men on the internet especally not strange men 2 times my age from pakistan who he was pretending to be.

maybe that is part of the gaslight game. he told me he misses me and loves me under his fake identity while dropping hints to confuse me. if he loves me so much why dosnt he go to me and bring me a nice gift,card, bouquet to cheer me up and be supportive of me and take me to my doctor appointments.

a real boyfriend is supportive of any girl they are dating.

the reason i dont care that much as others that he has been stalking me or following me on the computer is because ive hsd a disability for the last few years and have almost died from it a few times.

so in my mind any company is nice even if its a stalker , i didnt realize how terrible it is. ive been dealing with a serious life threatening disease for the last few years.so ive been an easy target for these psychopaths because i cannot do everything for myself that others can.

like going into an ocean of sharks with a paper cut or scrape on your knee, they will smell you as lunch from a mile away.any trained psychopath can tell im not 100% there and able to defend myself. they would pick up on that.

what happened is 2009 the swine flu was going around, i got that and it caused my immune sytem to go down and then i got an opportunistic infection that disabled me and then later caused me to get a serious neurological disease that deteriotated my brain function.i got a mild stroke from that eventually because it leads to more serious things.so i would have no idea who is saying what to me, when. i only began getting clear thoughts or understanding anything this winter, before that i was not mentally able to know much. anyways i read in some cases and people my age it is curable when the source of the brain disability is gotten rid of.difficult to explain like i knew but didnt understand anything, anyone who ever had a brain injury might understand what i mean.

my short term memory as almost gone so each day was new with not much retained information like that movie . its not funny but there was no way i could deal with people so i was isolated at home being targeted over the internet that i thought was fine. my long term memory is still great mainly.

so i would talk to any weirdo in any chat room on the internet which is probably swarming with psychopaths besides the stalker.

i dont know what to do, my own family victimises me they know i cant do anything to defend myself, i have n0o friends due to being homebound mostly and my mental decline i lost most of my in person social skills that someone would need to make new friends, i even have slurred speech alot of the time so im nervous about talking to people with my voice. insecure. so im isolared and then also have a stalker

one bad thing lead to the other. my family victimised me and then i got sick from that and then that made other people victimise me.

ive been alone trying to save my life, looking to recover but my family members did things to prevent me from recovering. and then i got confused and worried about stalkers and people who dont care

i do need an in person support system which might help me be less victimised by psychopaths. but who knows anyone can become a victim of a stalker

i cant even make new friends because my social skills are gone and i have serious brain impairments now and am too sick to go out of the house much. im very tired the last few months due to my stroke.

so im not able to do anything,i think i have no option. maybe i need to go to some rehabilitation center where i can relearn any skills i lost during my illness. i dont even know how to have a basic in person conversation wth anyone n0ow because i say inapropriate things or cant speak normally and i get sudden episodes of mania out of nowhere and im too worried to attempt to socioalize now. i have symptoms that seem like psychistric issues due to the brain disorder.so i seem like i have unstable bipolar alot of times but its not something that can be controlled with psychiatric treatment or medication.

i dont know why its easier for me to type out my thoughts, but when i speak it dosnt go as well or i cant think of words.

i dont know why these guys bother me, i get random people in the internet bothering me in pm, or the stalker makes different attempst to pm me and bother me even tho im suffering from a terrible serious life altering medical issue.

im not even able to understand if i love someone back so how is this guy telling me he loves me and then telling me under fake screen names that he is from india or pakistan and telling me fake names.

do psychopaths go under fake screen names to attempt to talk to you.

i have much more serious things to worry about then if a guy is stalking me or loves me or monitoring me. but maybe thats my disorganised thinking where i want to worry about things that i dont need to worry about or are not the top priority which is one of the symptoms for people who have my medical problem.





i dont answer his pm anymore on the internet. i didnt even log onto my instant messenger acount much in the last few weeks. but i dont have aything else to do i cant focus on a tv show for some reason or read a book or ill be bored right away and not focus.

so im stuck with a computer and no in person support system. focusing on the wrong things and being confused. what does the stalker even want from me? maybe to make me think my neuroligical issues are worse or make me doubt myself. i cant go on a date with him or be his real life girlfriend since im too sick.

maybe something to do with winning? these people are ruthless and dont care who they pick on even a disabled person or someone with an illness. maybe they thought it was funny to pick on someone who is not in their right mind.