i got bullied for years during elementary school until i was 13 yrs old. then i went to a different school and no one bullied me at the new school.

but i noticed as an adult now im being bullied again even worse then i was during school.i didnt notice that bullies target adults too. the bullying became severe and i began to notice it as soon as i got sick from a life threatening /debiliating medical illness. when i got sick and my appearance changed from the illness and i was too weak to defend myself anymore that is when tons of random people began to bully me. 4 yrs ago i got sick from a life threatening mrsa infection which disabled me. it got worse over time to a point i couldnt get out of bed many days, fever, chills, shakyness, vomoting,severe pain,tiredness,flu type symptoms. i had seizures from it and other neurological symptoms such as not being able to stand up, randomly falling down onto the sidewalk when in public,weak muscles so i couldnt stand, slurred speech or not able to talk many times, drowsyess,short term memory trouble sometimes. i gained 50 pounds from the illness ,have rashes all over and boils

i didnt decide to get sick,im an intelligent person

since i got sick maybe because of my appearance or looking weak or not able to defend myself ive had tons of people all ages going up to me in public calling me names, laughing as they watch me walk slow due to my illness and mobility issue. some people threw things at me, i got spit at a few times by total strangers who thought it was funny. i was going to call police on them but they ran away too fast for me to get a better look at them or keep them there.

when i go into stores over the last few years ive got laughed at by young store employees (college kids) even some older ones. i get approached at stores and yelled at by employees shouting embarassing things at me like you better pay for that- things to humiliate me.

i get followed by store employees and managers who watch me and annoy me while i shop.they laugh at me sometimes or go up to me telling me i caanot leave the store because they have to check the store tape to see if i robbed the store. another employee maybe in her 40s followed me around then for fun made up a lie about me to the manager claiming that i stole a large shampoo bottle and hid it in my purse, my purse was small and could only fit like something the size of a camera, was more like a clutch bag. the bottle couldnt even fit in something like my purse and she still went along with the story insisting to the manager that she SAW ME shoplift. the manager walked me to the back checked my purse and coat pockets, found nothing. then i argued to the manager that they should check the security camara tapes to prove i didnt take anything.

then when the manager questioned the employee why he found that i took nothing , then the employee looked embrarased and changed the story telling the manager that she didnt see me take anything, a customer told her i took something. big liar, she couldnt get the story straight

i never stole anything in my entire almost 30 yrs, im not the type of person to steal even, i have great morals and am kind and sympathetic. there is no chance i would ever steal anything
i have no criminal record. im one of the most honest reliable people. why i the world would they make up stories about me, why me. which i have to prove each time by store managers going through my purse,

that employee must have been a p/s who would make up stories for fun like that to harass a paying customer. not only a customer but someone suffering from a disabling illness, she was even cracking up laughing when i finally left the store after being questioned by the manager

iit happened many times. mainly at drugstores or supermarkets where i need to buy the things.

when i go to order at resturants or take out places the college kids .20 yr olds behind the counter laugh to eachother when im there,they wrote a nasty comment on my food receipt one time to make fun of me, they talk down to me, very disrespectful. even one time i went to an ice cream store , the people at the counter made fun of me a few times and gave me rude stares but i went there again anyways and ignored them.

i ordered frozen yogurt and the employee who was smirking same one who gave me the bad stink eye looks days before took my ice cream cup towards the back away from the counter and thought i wasnt looking because alot of customers where there , then i couldnt believe it i saw her bend down towards the ice cream cup and spit actual spit loogie onto my ice cream. i saw what i saw and was disgusted, she came back to the counter with the ice cream expecting me to pay and i said nevermind, didnt pay or take the ice cream and got out of there fast .
people are terrible to me i cannot imagine how they do these things. i could never imagine myself doing this to people, i would never put any customers in a health risk or spit in their food. thats morally wrong , horrible.

how do they do mean things, dosnt seem like they have a conscounse if this is how they are to strangers how do they act to people they know such as family members or their enemy

i get tons of stares and questoned by employees who follow me around. they employees sometimes break out lughing among eachother suddenly when i go to the counter to pay. even one employee threw my change at me at the floor by my feet then looked back laughing hysterical to her coworker. very disrespectful

the managers do nothing when i complain to them. i was even banned from a chain resturaunt for usng the bathroom there did nothing wrong tho. i didnt mess up the bathroom or anything i was a considerate respectful customer. i have bought soda there before but cannot order the food there due to religous dietary laws

they threatened to call the police on me because i lined up outside the womens bathroom because i wasnt feeling well there were no stores with any bathroom nearby. i got in to the bthroom and 2 minutes later a security guard walks in there demanding that i leave then threatened to call police i didnt know i wasnt allowed to go to a public resturant bathroom



its horrible treatment everywhere for me by strangers who do not know me, they dont know my situation.

its sickening to bully a stranger.i could never imagine bullying a person especially someone who is disabled suffering from a life threatening medical problem. how can they even think bout bullying or harassing me?

i think alot of these people i met who bully me before they know me are psychopaths, they must spot me out from yards away as a victim then bully me. they have to be a n/p/s some type of cluster b beausw who else would bully a random adult they dont know

its not socially acceptaLe, not humane, they have no compasion or human consderation for me.

their shameless to and viscous.

i thought once your donet with hghschool then no one bullies you . what has the adult word gone to. maybe social media makes bullying popular or people lost their social skills? i know theres tons of nice people out there too who are kind and socially normal and respectful but i have the worst time beause for some reason all the crazies(n/p/s/ go to me, they smell out a victim and go up to bother me .

i live in new york city so there are a high amount of arrogant,self centered, competitive people here. i think its possible that a high amount of them are p/s/n . how else can you not care about others or not be concerned for others well being, or having basic human compassion for others.

they dont have to like me but they atleast should respect me and not go out of their way to bother me . i dont like everyone i meet but i try to be respectful to people. the basic standard human respect to people in society.

im even too nice, im nice to animals too. even if i have my own problems i will go up to empathise for others and attempt to help them. i have given 5 dollar bills to homeless people asking for change when everyone else on the street walked by them and did not stop. i have helped stray animals(cats etc)

i dont understand being cruel and going out of your way to make a stranger suffer. how can you even be angry at them if they are a stranger and you just met them or dont know them.

i think there might be more bullies or p/s in big cities like new york city,,maybe it is easier for them to blend in there because no one minds your business here, no one is very friendly here, everyone keeps to themselves mainly, neighbors dont talk to eachother etc
but they know how to find helpless people who cannot defend themselves . i was getting yelled at one time by an employee and she was making fun of me right to me and i couldnt respong back becausw of my neurolgical trouble that day, i couldnt get 2 words out beccause my speech was slurred due to my infection . i felt horrified that i couldnt answer or stand up for myself while being picked on. i could not even say the words no or leave me alone.

i think most adult bullies are probably actual psychopaths due to their antisocial behavior. but you dont see their mask go off because they are bullies only and you might not get to know them how their real victims do like their family or spouse.

i think there might be more s/p out there then what we know of. i think in certain places like nyc it could be like 20 percent of the population ,


there are large numbers of suicides here in the nyc metro that are said to be directly related to bulling they left suicide notes or facebook messages saying they could not deal with being bullied anymore or shamed by their enemies/coworkers/peer,

one girl in her 20s jumped off a bridge here recently due to cyber bullying. her friends and coworkers at her job were telling her terrible things making fun of her for months, telling her the world is better off with her gone etc then blaming her. obvious smear campaign

then she went and killed herself the day after getting into an argument with her bullies from work over the internet.



im convinced that these bullies are psychopaths or psychopath personality disordered.

psychopaths will sometimes torment anyone even strangers, not only their wife or girlfriend, husband etc

even strangers who they dont know. i dont even know how to deal with random s/p who i dont know who decide to bully me randomly in public at stores, the street. if sometimes i cannot even talk or am too sick to stand up to them.

i have gone out in a few months but i wonder what could have done differently, i think there was nothing i did wrong.

i guess they are making fun of and picking on a helpless looking person like myself because its fun for them, it entertetrains their boredom to force me to suffer and be bothered. im like instant temporary supply for them. they dont control their impulse to go pick on a stranger.

i think they mainly pick on helpless people who are easier targets. they wouldnt go up to someone who looks accomplished or like a big shot. they wouldnt go bully a succesful looking business man in a suit with a briefcase.

because maybe they think that person would call their lawyer or instantly fight them.

but im 29 i look more like 21 and am disabled/handicapped whatever you call it and cannot do much to defend myself. i would get a lawyer and sue the stores but with everyone i need to sue including my own family i would be in court the next 20 years with 100 different court cases for everyone who did wrong things

i even get bullied over the inernet in chatrooms and instant messenger which is less annoying and understandable because the internet is weirder than real life out there. but even out there in public i dont get away from the bullies.

but im too stressed out from what ive been going through that i dont even keep my religion much anymore. im too upset to do things i used to. im not even supposed to be on the computer today due to a religous holiday but i dont care these days, im upset and go on the computer anyways. i dont have much other things to do anyways


theres many typos but my keyboard on my laptop broke and im using the on screen keyboard and i dont want to go back and correct all the typos.