Hi everybody. I'm feeling some major anxiety right now, & I didn't know what to do with it, so I figured I'd try writing to you all. In 1/2 hour, I'm going out with my "husband" to an Anne Murray concert, here in Vancouver, BC Canada. I haven't been to a concert in years, & I'm wishing I could just go to bed and stay there, to avoid it altogether. I can trust the person I'm going with, & he does his best, but doesn't really understand. We're going to be way at the top, which I don't like, but fortunately, we got aisle seats. I find I'm holding my breath some, & feel knots in my stomach that have been there for the past 3 days. I'm pretty sure once I get there & get settled, I'll be able to adjust. But, I'm taking some clonazapam & ativan, just in case. hmmmm...maybe I should take a clonazepam now. It might help, & it's very mild, so shouldnt make me too sleepy. I'm also going through cigarette withdrawal, so that could also be an issue. I feel like crying. I want to run & hide so bad. But, I gave my word I'd go, & he's so looking forward to it. If anyone has any suggestions as to what I can do when I next face a similar situation, I'd sure appreciate hearing about them. Thanks for listening.
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