My name is lacy I am a widow of almost 6 years now my husband was in a industrial accident. 

I had 3 beautiful daughters with him our last I was expecting when he was killed she was born 7 months after his death. I  got remarried 2 years ago to another man who had 2 sons (His X still Living)  we just had our 1st together.  I thought that moving forward with life would make the lose of my 1st husband easier but it hasnt it's actually made life harder . Specially sense I'm not good at this blended family thing. I get so angry I have to even be in this situation My kids struggle with the loss of their dad and want to be loved by my husband now but with him having his own bio kids it's hard for him to fully love my kids which wouldn't hurt me if their (my kids) dad was alive to feel that void of a dads love that my current husband isn't able to give my girls. I'm really just so lost right now . Why does death have to be such an ongoing everyday emotional test once you lose your spouse, I just want to be able to breath and live normal.