I lost my husband of 12 years unexpectedly  on June 21st.  He went to bed the night before happy and joking around with our kids and I.. The next morning I went to wake him and he wouldn't wake up. He was 35 years old and they said it was a heart attack. I still can't believe it.  We have 4 beautiful children together. I feel alone even though I have family. I try so hard for my children to stay strong but I feel broken and hallow. I'm just lost.